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(Message started by: Carl_D on Dec 29^th, 2003, 2:51pm)

Title: I'm down
Post by Carl_D on Dec 29^th, 2003, 2:51pm

I'm going through too much shit too fast. I'm caught in the 'red tape' web of the fucking medical community, and still don't have a neuro appointment. I had to cancel an emergency dental appointment (for one of the teeth they fucked up). I'm in pain...no, I am in PAIN! My jaws, tooth, head, and legs - fucking killing me. It's bad enough I got the beast knocking on my head everytime I lie down.
Since I am basically not functioning to capacity - I am out of the band. I just feel like shit. Fuckit.

Shutting up,
Carl D

Title: Re: I'm down
Post by Little Deb on Dec 29^th, 2003, 2:59pm

Sometimes ya just gotta say...."WHAT THE FUCK!"

Hang in there bud.

little deb

Title: Re: I'm down
Post by BlueMeanie on Dec 29^th, 2003, 3:05pm

Sorry to hear that your PAIN just doesn't seem to want to end. Have you had a visit to your family doctor so he can straighten out the mess your in ? It seems that there has to be something he can do.

Hope you get well soon and everything works out. PF vibes coming your way.

Title: Re: I'm down
Post by Carl_D on Dec 29^th, 2003, 3:17pm

[quote author=BlueMeanie link=board=general;num=1072730356;start=0#2 date=12/29/03 at 15:05:40]Have you had a visit to your family doctor so he can straighten out the mess your in ? quote]
I can't get in any sooner than Wednesday (provided I have a way there unlike my dentist appt today which got me stranded). When I called his office tryng toget another neuro referral - his receptionist kept referring me back to that fuckhead who doesn't know left from right and basically is an 'assembly line doc'.
I'm having muscle spams bad...and finding it a chore to even type! I don't know. I am just frustrated. I'm tired yet can't lie down, my legs are so freaking sore - from what i don't know.
I am gonna tell my doc wednesday that if something doesn't change, and i mean SOON - I can see myself sucking on a 12 gauge as a solution. I'm just fucking tired!!!!!!!

Carl D

Title: Re: I'm down
Post by Donna_D. on Dec 29^th, 2003, 3:17pm

check your email

Donna D.

Title: Re: I'm down
Post by gmlevenhagen on Dec 29^th, 2003, 3:34pm

Please don't ever give up.
I can think of a thousand and one cliches.
But I know that they mean less than nothing when your in the kind of pain that you are in.
Just know I have you in my prayers.

PF vibes comin' at ya

Gena

Title: Re: I'm down
Post by Woobie on Dec 30^th, 2003, 10:52am

on 12/29/03 at 15:17:14, Carl_D wrote:

I am gonna tell my doc wednesday that if something doesn't change, and i mean SOON - I can see myself sucking on a 12 gauge as a solution. I'm just fucking tired!!!!!!!

Carl D

I betcha if you call the Dr. on the phone,
and tell them that -
they'll get you into a neuro, and soon!

and i HOPE you dont MEAN that.

hope it gets better........
Tina

Title: : I'm down
Post by ZAIRA on Dec 30^th, 2003, 2:11pm

Awwwwwww...... :'( How sad to hear that you are in a hard time! I’m really sorry! Stay hard, Carl. "It" must END sometime. Shit!!

PFDAN, Zaira

Title: Re: I'm down
Post by thomas on Dec 30^th, 2003, 3:08pm

on 12/29/03 at 15:17:14, Carl_D wrote:

I can see myself sucking on a 12 gauge as a solution.

Carl D

Get that fucking gun away from your mouth, that's NO solution, we are all pulling for you bro. Good times straight ahead.

Title: Re: I'm down
Post by aprilbee on Dec 30^th, 2003, 3:32pm

this will all end, it always does...I've been in your exact same boat recently, and I have found a specialist in pain (for non CH pain) and I have bounced back better than ever...I know you're venting, but it scares us all when someone, even in jest, mentions taking their lives. Sending huge Okie prayes and vibes your way! It WILL GET BETTER!

Title: Re: I'm down
Post by Big_Dan on Dec 30^th, 2003, 3:44pm

Hang in there, C.....

... this shit isn't harder than you, bro... you fuckin' know better....

... castin' out vibage for ya...

-Big Dan

Title: Re: I'm down
Post by cathy on Dec 30^th, 2003, 4:15pm

Hey Carl keep fighting the good fight, there are some people who don't have a choice between life and death you do take this gift of life and keep fighting the good fight.

Sending you PF vibes

Cathy

Title: Re: I'm down
Post by Paigelle on Dec 30^th, 2003, 5:39pm

Hang in there Carl! We are here to listen and give you a shoulder when you need it. It will all work out for the best, even though it feels like the whole world is falling apart.

Title: Re: I'm down
Post by Renee on Dec 30^th, 2003, 6:23pm

Carl,

If I could take your pain and bring it upon myself, I would, but I can't, but...I can pray for your pain to ease to allow you to see what you would be missing if you were not here.

We are here for ya, in mind, body and spirit!

Fight the fight and have faith that a cure will be found. I have a quote on my computer monitor that helps me daily in dealing with the demon.

"The future belongs to those who see possibilities before they are perceived by others".

We know there is a future fix out there for CH, it has just not been found.

PF times headed your way,
Renee

Title: Re: I'm down
Post by 5-string on Dec 30^th, 2003, 6:39pm

Like Cathy said, as long as you have a choice, you know what the choice is. As long and endless as this may seem to you right now, and hearing someone say"It will get better"does'nt seem to do shit for the pain, this episode will be behind you.
For right now,just say"Fuck-it!"and don't fight how pissed it makes you feel. We are in your corner,please hang in there.
...Mark..