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(Message started by: Jasmyn on Nov 1^st, 2005, 10:03am)

Title: Hiding here
Post by Jasmyn on Nov 1^st, 2005, 10:03am

Don't read this... I'm talking to an imaginary friend/priest/psycologist.

If you decide to read further then please:

I don't want sympathy, I just need to talk and get my feelings off my chest. There is no-one out here that will understand like you guys. So don't even reply back, like I said I'm just talking. Pretend to be an overpaid psychiatrist with no interest or a priest during confession, anything you like.

I know I'll get over this. You guys have helped me through a period when I went through this hell without meds. Thank you!

I hang onto this site for dear life and this insane asylum for sanity. I feel like a "Whus" but I'm actually very strong. I lost me temporarily and are just trying to find myself again. I can't seem to put 2 words together without babbling. I'm depressed and can't seem to surface.

The Mist

I stare down the precipice, looking at my own reflection
Mirrored moonlight in the mist
I pass me by… with no intention

I hear my own voice call, echo’s as it drifts…
Resound off hollow floor then wall
while tears like water drip

Vast caverns of emotions, my heart a drooping Dhali clock
Despite my best intentions
waves break against the rock

Fog-cloaked dampen haze, the footpath now but gone
While cloying tendrils in this daze
pull me toward that sad soul song

I do not want to shout, I do not want to scream
I just want to get lost
in this… my constant dream

The pain that ripped my brain apart…
It’s done, it’s gone…
only its shadow now lingers on

This weary mist won’t lift; it would not let me be
I am not blind…
but still I can not see

Title: Re: Hiding here
Post by lionsound on Nov 1^st, 2005, 1:04pm

(replying anyway)

I hear you Jas. I've hidden where you are.
[smiley=hug.gif]
-lionsound

Title: Re: Hiding here
Post by Gator on Nov 1^st, 2005, 8:32pm

Then somewhere in the darkness
You hear a voice cry out
You see a light approaching
A hand is offered out

Cautiously you take the hand
And stepping through the mire
We finally depart the mist
You feel your soul fly higher

And then you see a gathering crowd
As others come into view
You are never really alone
We are always here for you

Anytime...

Title: Re: Hiding here
Post by Sandy_C on Nov 2^nd, 2005, 8:14am

Jas, your poem was beautifully written and moving.

Gator, you brought tears to my eyes.

Thank you both for sharing with me.

Sandy

Title: Re: Hiding here
Post by nani on Nov 2^nd, 2005, 3:10pm

Sheesh...you two got me all verklempt!!! :'(

Jas, I like to pretend I'm an overpaid psychiatrist... if you ever need to talk, just holler, hun. (I do care, though)
hugs and love, nani

Title: Re: Hiding here
Post by Jonny on Nov 2^nd, 2005, 4:10pm

:-*

Title: Re: Hiding here
Post by kimmeesue on Nov 2^nd, 2005, 4:14pm

Jasmyn and Gator...only WOW. I am awed.
Thank you.
Kim

Title: Re: Hiding here
Post by Phil L on Nov 2^nd, 2005, 6:16pm

Gator, that was very poetic and besides all that pretty
damn good. Thanks!

Title: Re: Hiding here
Post by pattik on Nov 2^nd, 2005, 7:52pm

There's real talent in these parts. [smiley=hug.gif]

Title: Re: Hiding here
Post by Chillrmn1 on Nov 2^nd, 2005, 7:54pm

Really cool thread.........great poem Jas, nice finish Gator.

Title: Re: Hiding here
Post by BarbaraD on Nov 2^nd, 2005, 9:24pm

Poems were great kids. Have ya'll noticed that one thing most Clusterheads have in common (and we've looked high and low for a commonality) is that there's a lot of artistic tallent out amoungest us.... some write, some are musical, some are painters and sculpturers... but the artistic stuff comes out so frequently. Maybe it's that extra gray matter.... ok it's a theory...

But Jas, we've all been where you are and you just stay here and talk it all out. Someone is on here 24/7 and we do care.

Hugs BD

Title: Re: Hiding here
Post by Kate in Oz on Nov 3^rd, 2005, 7:48am

:'( this aint sympathy - it's understanding

hang in there Jas [smiley=hug.gif]