Hi you guys!  (remember me??)

Ok - so some of you MAY have noticed I've been, well... not here.

I've BEEN here... just not posting.  I used to be here every single day.. no matter what - then i lost track of things and couldnt' catch up - and now i check in once a week maybe.  And - i still dont have a clue.

At first, it was a problem with my computer.  It would take so long to post that i just wouldnt...but i would still be here reading.
then - came depression.

no reason - nothing happened... well you guys know that there doesnt have to be a reason for depression - it just happens.  and it happened...all the sudden.... right after DavCon last year - for some reason.   The blues set in, and they never went away.  

It's been 9 months.. still depressed.. still dont wanna do anything, go anywhere, talk to anyone - or be awake for that matter.  BUT.... i NOW realize that i need a kick in the ass.  I need to make myself better...   I totally feel like i've abandoned my clusterheads.  After Davcon - i kinda fell down a hole, and after so long - how do you just apologize and come back?  

well, i'm asking you to forgive me.  I love you guys, and I miss you guys, but i dont know how to get my ass back into gear.?? but I'm going to try.    

PLEASE dont take it personal.  I havent called anyone - havent emailed anyone - havent posted on here, havent done anything.  depression makes you VERY selfish.  and i feel selfish, ... and i'm sorry.

I dont want anything but for you guys to not be mad at me. ok? :'(  I'm going to do my best to get my ass back in gear now.  9 months of darkness is enough.

I love you guys.
woobie

No worries Coots, welcome back.  We love you too.

Welcome home, Woobs......sit back and I will rub your feet.  :-* :-*

Woobs.  Even if you were to disappear for 20 years, I'd still send you emails, because I love ya. :)

Hi Woobie!

I don't know you from before but your post touched my heart!  I'm so glad you decided to come back here.  Depression is a terrible thing.... How proud you should be for making yourself see that you have to help yourself.   The very next thing you should do is get on the phone with you doctor.  It sounds like it has been long enough trying to deal with this alone.  While you have the desire, you should try to get an Anti-depressant so that you don't slip again.  Some may say that meds are not the answer but I know from experience that sometimes you need a little help to get you back on track.

I'd bet that no one here feels anything but happiness that you have  returned.  Hang in there, sweetie!

Jeannie

You called me.

That makes me feel pretty darned special, considering what you've been going through.

You guys coming to the benefit tomorrow?

WOOBIEdooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!  You have NO idea how you are loved around here, do ya?? Yes, you've been missed....and you've misssed a lot, too!
BUT!!!!!!!!!!!
Honey put your fuzzy slippers back on and take back that apology!
PLEASE do what feels best to you!
Depression is a funny thing....... first we withdraw, then we realize it didn't help,and we might have upset someone we care for so we withdraw a bit more. Pretty soon, it's near impossible to go back for fear of retribution. We spiral out, and it is sooo hard to figure out how to get back. Here, you're loved just as you are, no apology required, just soo glad to see you!
I'm just so glad you're around!!! Wanna go for a drive, pick up some munchies??  

Ah loves ya Woobiedoo!!
Cathi :-*

First of all.............. FUBAR........ im not COOTIE.. i'm WOOBIE.. ;D
and where IS cootie anyway???

Cathi... you got it RIGHT... that's exactly how i feel..  the spiriling thing... retribution..etc.  You hit the nail on the head.

BREW.... I DID get the weekend off specifically to come to the benefit.  I got the weekend off = and then I sat here and thought NO i cant go... i'd be no fun... i cant be around those people... the noise and chaos will kill me.  I've been kicking myself in the ass... go - dont go - go - dont go - just paypal the money - go dont go...i got the weekend off - just GO.  no - i dont feel like it.

but - Lizzie.... (my DEAR DEAR friend) emailed me out of the blue and asked me if I'm going.  she called me and we talked and she told me the sad update.    :'(

Now - regardless of how I feel - bob needs his friends.  So I'm going.  I'll be there tomorrow...
I dont know what to say to him and I dont have a lot of money - all I can do is be there,  so be there, I will be.  

So - i'll see you tomorrow...
take it easy on me - i'm fragile... LOL

Thanks for being so understanding.  Not sure I deserve it.

And jonny - i'm soooooooooooooooo holding you to that foot rub! :-*

woobs

Melissa wrote on Oct 3^rd, 2008 at 5:18pm:

Woobs.  Even if you were to disappear for 20 years, I'd still send you emails, because I love ya. :)

and thank you for that.  :-*    How's the baby??????

oH - and will SOMEONE catch me up ???  LOL  

Woobie wrote on Oct 3^rd, 2008 at 5:45pm:

and thank you for that.  :-*    How's the baby??????

Ava's doing good.  She just ate a bunch of wood chips. :)

As for catching you up, wish I could help ya, but I'm as clueless as to what's happened around here since you've been gone too. ;)

Woobie wrote on Oct 3^rd, 2008 at 5:45pm:

oH - and will SOMEONE catch me up ???  LOL

Ok, I just bought a new truck, Chuck is still a flaming fruit and I think Guiseppi is joining Chucks side of the fence, because I caught him telling Barry that he loved him.

Thats it, trucks and fruits....LMAO!!!  ;D :D ;D

Woobie wrote on Oct 3^rd, 2008 at 5:42pm:

First of all.............. FUBAR........ im not COOTIE.. i'm WOOBIE.. ;D

heh... my fingers are faster than my brain... I knew what I was saying, just not what I was typing!   :D

Oh Woobie!!!!!!!!!!!!!  It's so good to see you.  Jean & I just spoke of you yesterday.....wondering how you and the Bus are.


You know we love you and you're always welcome....NO MATTER WHAT.

Now....no more of that sorry stuff.

What's it our Woobs says.....'peace out'..... :)

Love to you and the Bus,
Jackie

Woobs, with this crew, it's kinda like playing double-dutch jumprope..... you'll never catch up, ya just have to jump in when ya see a chance !
PLEASE go this weekend. Give hugs, get hugs, wrap yourself tight in the love people have for you, Woobs, and help Bob and his family heal just a little bit. I'd appreciate it if you tell them I send my sympathies as well....so, coudja do it, for me? Please??

PEACE OUT!
Cath :D  

[smiley=wave.gif]  Hi Woobie!

Sorry to hear you have been going through a rough patch and glad to see you back on the board!

[smiley=hug.gif] Beth

Hey Tina!!!!!

   I'll bet if you took a poll around here, you'd find the vast majority know EXACTLY what you're talking about with the depression.  So stop apologizing.

 Yes you were missed.  And Ramon too.


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will SOMEONE catch me up ???

Lately it has been lots and lots of political debates, observations etc. due to the economy, bail-out and so forth.  
Fubar and his wife are pregnant and she is in the hospital for the remainder of her pregnancy with a few scares...we are all praying that she can go to term with the twins or at least have them stay put,  til they're viable.  

Lots and lots of new people.
 Professor Goadsby spoke at the last convention in Dallas.  
People with new cameras posting awesome pics.
 At least 2 trolls were barred.   ;D


Welcome back my shorter than me friend.  ;)

Oh Wow!  It's so nice to see you back.  I think of you and your family often since meeting you at Milcon.

Hang in there kiddo - lots of us here to catch you up and if need be - to hold you up.


Hugs
Carol

Woobie Woobie

I think Mel said it best...

Don't matter how long you are away...there is nothing like comin' on home.

You and Ramon get yourselves to that benefit and share some of that cluster-luv with those who need it and can give it right back.

think Guiseppi is joining Chucks side of the fence, because I caught him telling Barry that he loved him.

Not that there's ANYTHING wrong with that....but who's gonna tell Christy??? She soooo has no sense of humor.....Hug and a kiss Woobie, only way to get going s to get going, good to see you back! [smiley=hug.gif]

Guiseppi

How could I forget anyone named Woobie?

Welcome back kid and I hope you get around this thing
and will post and post and post.

We can be good thearpy too.

Charlie

Hiya Woobie!

Welcome home!  You've been missed, and I am so glad you are back.  Depression is a hard beast to kick, but stay at it.  You mean a awful lot to a lot of us.  

How is Ramon doing?  He posted about getting hit again, then haven't heard any more from him, and I haven't called. :-[  

Jerry

Hiya Woobs,

Helen wouldn't even let a KNOTHEAD like me go...guess that's how a family works...glad you're back...

Best,

Jon

Welcome back, Woobie.  It's so good to see you posting again.   [smiley=wave.gif]

Best wishes,

George

Hey - THANK YOU GUYS!!!!!!!! :)....


 

Yes, ramon is in another cycle.  It has been a long time since he had a cycle... (2-3 years) and this one isnt as bad as his last one - so he's thankful for that.  
i wanted to check into getting him that new mask.  I thought it was called clustermax... but there's a link at the bottom of here ... is that something else or the same thing??  

can someone tell me which one is the right one??

and ramon isn't coming tomorrow - he has to work.  which sucks.. but oh well.


hey - with this new board... how come more of ya'll dont post in colors??  would it annoy you guys if i posted in color??  i mean, is there a reason that no one is??  let me know ...I do not wish to annoy.  

I like the new board .. btw.   It's cool!

smooches
woobs

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i mean, is there a reason that no one is??

No reason I can see.

I'm mad at you Woobs :) ........NOT!!!

Nuttin much new goin on here...same ole crap :)

Love and miss ya Woobs!!!!

Mast

You SHoULD be mad at me Michelle!!!!   Did I ever get back to you about that Tat???   I see you got it ... but did i ever even respond???  
I meant to - and then - well.........shit.  I have had a hard time remembering things and keeping my SH** together.... I may have gotten back to you - but i cant remember now if i did or not????

i'm sorry  :'(

I am a HORRIBLE friend.

I'm going to be better now ......... i promise

:-/

Jeeze, you need to lighten up on yourself Missy!! Yeah, you did get back to me about that tatt...I think on myspace or sumpthin, so don't worry bout it!  And you are NOT a bad person, sheesh, you are a Woobie :)  
If you are a bad person by not posting much, then I'm a 10 Times bad person, lol.
And dialup sux :)

love ya woobs!!! And nuthin will change that!
Mast

Good to see you back in here, Woobie. :) [smiley=hug.gif]
And lots of PF days to Ramon, too.

All the best,
Sanna

wrote on Oct 3^rd, 2008 at 5:53pm:

Ok, I just bought a new truck, Chuck is still a flaming fruit and I think Guiseppi is joining Chuck's side of the fence, because I caught him telling Barry that he loved him.

That truly sums up the last 9 months here!

Miss ya Woobs - kisses to both of you.  
Chin up - we'll get through this together.

Nobody loves ya like I do, baby       :-*

I miss you....bunches     :'(

Much love,

Jean

Hi Woobie, I think of donuts when I think of you...damn now I am hungery. The only thing new that has happen in my neck of the woods is, I gained weight. We have a new dog and seven Hermit crabs.

Depression I know all so well, trying to catch up is impossable.

I love you and think of you often.

Thank you guys!!!!!!!!!!


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