I know I've asked for this a lot lately but I just got the final word. Grandma's going and going fast. They say from 2 days to 2 weeks. I've barely got enough left to keep from falling apart so please if you could send my family and I a little more strength it would be greatly apperciated. She was admitted to the hospital tonight with fluid filled lungs and more tumors than the last scan. She's pretty out of it right now and will be in the ICU at least over night. Hospice has been called in for when she goes home. Please say prayers for this amazing lady who has not shed even a single tear yet and continues to fight. We can only hope that her pain goes quickly so she does not have to suffer any more. Thank you all once again so much because you have been amazing the past few days.

Breaking down,
Broken  :'(

Grandma's are really hard to let go of, and I am really sorry that you are going through this.  It's a part of life that tears our hearts out.

Hospice will make her transition much easier, less pain, and more support for you and your family. Wise choice.

I'm truly sorry...  :'(
Donna

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Breaking down,

NO you are NOT Felicia !   You're in a very sad place right now and you are gonna lean on us and your DaD.  Go have yourself a good cry right now...eat some chocolate, and come back and tell us all about her.  I want to hear why you love her.   :)

My prayers are with Grandma and you, kid!  :'(

I can only hope, that when it's my time to leave this earth, that I have such a sweet, loving granddaughter as yourself.

hugs,
mel

Felicia:

My thoughts are with you as are my prayers for you and your family.

Ray

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

Hugs,

Jen

My thoughts and prayers are with you, I'm so sorry you're having such a rough time. :/

It a hard time for you right now.

I've been down that road...my grandmother was the closest person to me.  I was out of it for months...angry at the world for what and how it happened.

It is good not to forget...but then it isn't good to dwell in the past.

My hopes and prayers go out to you and your family...and though the pain may take time to relieve itself, you will become stronger because of it.

Hang in there. I believe every dark gives a chance for equal amount of light, though it may be hard to see now. You obviously are such a sweet caring person. My thoughts are with you.

A little more then your fair share these days... :'(...keeping you in our prayers, you'll be okay.

Guiseppi

:'( So sorry about your Grandma Felicia.  You both will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Hugs,
Beth

Felicia,
You are in my prayers.  I feel for you.  I miss my grandma most days.  Make sure and talk about how you feel.  The love you feel in your heart for her is what lives on and on.

((((Felicia))))

It's zero fun but don't beat yourself up. It's okay to feel as you do but you'll also find that when it's necessary, you'll go into some kind of what I call "competence mode" for awhile. I don't know what to call it other than that but it does exist.

Thinking a praying for you.

Charlie

I'm so sorry, Felicia.  I know what you're going through.

Sending you and your family the very best.  

George

I'd like to hear more about your grandma too Felicia, she is obviously a pretty amazing lady and I'd love to hear some of your memories.

Remember, no matter how much it hurts, it's better to have had her for the short time you have than not at all and you know she'll never be gone. She'll be there waiting for you every time you think of her.

Brid and I will be there soon and we'll all meet up again. I'm really looking forward to that.

lots of love
Helen xxx

Felicia, so sorry for all you are going through these past few days. Prayers are on the way from Canada. :'(

Here are a couple of hugs for you!
Barry&Angie [smiley=hug.gif] [smiley=hug.gif]

Prayers are going out for you and your family. Tell us about her and what she means to you. Grandma's are so special to us. My own Lucy B. departed this earth 23 years ago and I still think of her with a smile and such great memories. Talk to us....

Hugs BD

Felicia,
My Grandmother died 18 years ago and I still miss her.  She was an amazing woman and a profound impact on my life.  My daughter was lucky enough to be able to meet her and spend a little time with her.

This hurts and it's going to hurt awhile longer.  It's okay to break down, just don't let it break you.  There will come a time, when the good memories will outweigh the bad ones (the end times).

You can make it through this.  And Charlie is so right about the *competence* mode (I"ve always called it my *survival* mode).

'darlin

Hugs to you, Sweetie....it's hard duty for sure. :'(

Felicia..

I am so sorry for your pain Sweetie... I will not tell you that I know how you feel, because I don't; but I do know the feeling of loosing someone I love.

I will say a Prayer for you and your family..
   
       Today I lifted up your Family
      Before the Lord in prayer.
      I asked Him to supply your needs,
      And keep you all in His care.

        Dear Heavenly Father,
            I plead with You today
   To take away Felicia's pain;
          To chase away her sorrows,
   As The sunshine chases rain.

Much Love & Many Prayers
LadyLuv

Love and Light to you, Honey.   You are in my prayers.

Jeannie

I'm so sorry for your coming loss.  Hold tight to the memories you have.  I too would love to hear a story about her.

Loss is tough.  Especially the young and those we'd always assumed would be there forever.  Having them happen back to back like this just isn't fair.

As for your strength, no one here is underestimating you.  See that you don't either.

[smiley=hug.gif] to you, Billy and the rest of the family.

-Dennis-

Saw her tonight after school for a few hours. She's home and semi-comfortable but a little depressed and very tired. Quiet tired myself so I won't go into a detailed update tonight. Going back tomorrow for work like always so maybe something then. Powers give strength to her.

Broken

Felicia I lost my Nana 2 years ago, time eases the pain of the loss, and your heart will always have a place for her.  It's hard to do from the position you are in right now, but one of the gems of advice I received when my father died 8 years ago, was 'remember to always celebrate her life as well as mourn her death'.  It was the wisp of thread that got me through both my Dad and my Nana's passing.

Hang in there kiddo, you have a lot on your plate, there is no weakness in leaning on friends.

*hugs*
Cat

I am sooo sorry for what you are going through right now. It is such a rough thing loosing a grandmother. I lost mine 13 years ago. She was an amazing woman and not a day goes by that I don't think about her. God will give you the strenth to go on. Prayer has amazing power.

The pain is gone. For her anyways. My mind is numb so I really don't know what to say. My head hurts(haha) and my eyes are sore. I'm just getting home from her house after being there since around 2:30. Dad came and got me from school early so I knew it was all over. My family is taking it rough and we're all just really tired. Just thought those that care should know. My grandfather is fighting hard and I've never before seen the big man cry. I'm pretty numb right now so I guess that's all. I posted this before but I wanted to put it up again in memory of her. Thank you for the support and love you all have given me the past few weeks. It means the world to me and you'll never truly know. And though I'm not to smiling just yet, I will be hopefully soon. Here is Fly Away.

On feathered white wings,
I watch you fly away.
To a glowing place,
where cherib angels play.

Tears fill my eyes,
as I stare into the sun.
Scared and now so alone,
with no one or where to run.

The sky opens up,
just enough for you to slip through.
Then closes behind you,
me left wondering what to do.

Where do I go from here?
With no you to light my way.
Why did you have to leave?
While I have to stay.

It's not fair damn it!
I hit the ground, scraping my knee.
My heart shakes with sobs.
I only pray that you can't see.

Don't see my weakness,
be blind to my pain.
Your own tears come down,
they drench me in the rain.

You're missing me,
only half as much as I miss you.
I have your memory,
but only the real thing will do.

The sky is closed and dark now,
out of life you've gone away.
I can smile now though,
because I know you can stay.

Broken Felicia :'( :'( :'(

Oh Felicia, my heart aches for you  :'(  :'(  I'm so sorry that you are having to go through all this.  Keep her memory close to your heart, time will ease your pain as you celebrate her life.

*hugs*  :'(

Cat

Sorry kid :'(

I am so sorry.

:'(

So very sorry Felicia, so very sorry. :'( :'( Our deepest condolences.

 B&A [smiley=sad.gif] [smiley=sad.gif]

Losing a loved one is never easy.  My sympathies to you and your family sweetie.

hugs & love,
mel

Felicia,

I am so sorry for the loss to you and your family. Death is so hard. You have such a gift to be able to express your pain and memories through your poetry. Your writing is beautiful.

Charlotte

I'm very sorry for your loss, Felicia.   :'(

All the best to you and your family.

George

I'm sorry for your loss Felicia.  You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

Hugs  [smiley=hug.gif]

Jen

Sorry to hear this and I'm thinking of you and yours.

You're gonna do all right, you know.

Charlie

May peace find its way quickly back into your hearts.  I'm so sorry for your loss.

-Dennis-

Deepest sympathies to you, your family and all who knew and loved her.

Most sincerely,
Jackie

Felicia,
  I'm sorry about your Grandma,she was a great woman.She Loves you,Julia and Matt very much (A grandparents Love is eternal).When I saw Julia recently I told her you all will have a very Loving,very tough Angel watching over your whole family.The difference is now she'll be able to watch over you all the time.I know you have amazing memories of her.One day when you have children telling them stories of her will keep her memory alive forever.

               :'(   [smiley=hug.gif]
           Minnie

Very sorry for your losses, Felicia.  It's such an intense pain.  I pray for your strength and that your friends here can help you bear the sorrow.

Felicia,
On Oct 29, after 103 yrs on this earth, I watched my grandmother peacefully slip away. I have a hole in my world, just like you do.
Somehow, for you as well as for me, this hole will slowly fill with the wonderful memories we made with our Grandmas, and they will NEVER leave us. GG will be around, watching over those she loves, just like your Grandma will.
All we have to do is acknowledge the pain, then let the love we had for them bring us memories, and the holes in our worlds will beging to mend.
My deepest sympathy, Felicia,
Cathi

Sorry for your loss Felicia.  Hold tight to the memories of your Grandma and remember that it's okay to remember her with smiles as well as tears.

Hugs
Carol

There is nothing like loosing your grandma. My heart remembers that pain even though it doesn't sting my thoughts as it did when mine first passed when I was 16.

Felicia I'm so sorry for your loss, please pass along my sympathy to all who loved and will miss your grandma. You will now have the special duty of memorializing your grandma in the way that only you can... your talent and clear voice will be a conduit which will forever let your grandma's love and influence shine.

Don't hold back the tears nor the laughter, they are the water and the wind that our hearts set sail upon.

with warm regards,
Tony