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Title: the pain proves the hope
Post by AubanBird on Sep 23^rd, 2011 at 4:58pm

hope trumps.
the beast brings with him pain that seems stronger than everything. nothing can exist with it besides its friends: fear, rage, terror, regret. he slows time, stretching his minutes of torture over hours, days, and on to eternity. his strike seems to connect with the very soul, turning ordinary men and women into beasts like him. i never lose my temper, but the beast makes me act like him.
hope is stronger than he is. i can feel his anger when i continue to hope, begging God for it to end. that gift that makes him feel as helpless as i do proves to me that he is not ultimate, but God is.
the beast may bring pain, but he cannot destroy hope. in fact, he proves that hope will always be there, the same as a roadside bomb proves that even an atheist can instinctively call on God. i know there can be an end to the pain, and i start searching and calling for it as soon as the beast starts calling for me.
don't ever throw away hope. its one of our greatest gifts.

Title: Re: the pain proves the hope
Post by Brew on Sep 23^rd, 2011 at 7:29pm

Can't EVER throw away hope. EVER.

For me, it now has a name: 2-bromo-lysergic acid diethylamide.

It also has a nickname: BOL.

I wish more people knew what promise this holds.

Title: Re: the pain proves the hope
Post by Jimi on Sep 23^rd, 2011 at 10:31pm

Some day Bill, it will happen. Hopefully in our lifetime. But if not, for sure in our kids.

Title: Re: the pain proves the hope
Post by Guiseppi on Sep 24^th, 2011 at 4:59am

"Remember Red, hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things. And good things never die."

Andy Duchene The Shawshank Redemption

Joe

Title: Re: the pain proves the hope
Post by AubanBird on Sep 24^th, 2011 at 11:17am

i cant wait for something better to come out. its getting hard to manage the CH with things i carry in my assault bag or on my kit. i really cant wait to be back home and finally get to try oxygen.
i can say this though, this deployment has helped me cope with CH more effectively. i cant really say its been easy though...
im tired, but still hopeful.

Title: Re: the pain proves the hope
Post by AbbysMom on Oct 7^th, 2011 at 11:01am

AubanBird, I can't imagine dealing with CH while on deployment. I pray that you find some relief and make it home soon. Thank you for all that you do.

Title: Re: the pain proves the hope
Post by Elle on Oct 13^th, 2011 at 1:08am

My Prayers are with you AubanBird, I could never do what you are doing. May God Bless you with safe PF days!!

Brew, what is this BOL that you speak of?

Title: Re: the pain proves the hope
Post by Brew on Oct 13^th, 2011 at 7:41am

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Title: Re: the pain proves the hope
Post by wimsey1 on Oct 13^th, 2011 at 8:08am

Nicely said, AubanBird. Like you, I have found faith and hope go together quite nicely. I think these are two of the most prevailing characteristics of this board. Perhaps it is true of all who suffer and endure, as opposed to those who suffer and cannot or will not endure. We will "end" and with that will come an ultimate cessation to our pain. Meanwhile, our true character is forged here and now, while we all are deployed to a land that is not our own. Be safe, keep your head down, come home. God bless. lance