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Title: Very thankful to have found this place Post by Venus on Jul 4th, 2013 at 1:10pm
Hello - I am new here (obviously lol). I guess I just wanted to say that I am very thankful to have found somewhere like this. I stumbled upon your site when I came across an article I found while researching different treatment options for my headaches. I don't really know what to say here - I'm not usually a message board kind of person lol. I have been suffering with cluster headaches for about 4 years now, but only this year have I learned what was actually wrong with me. When I first made this deduction I was very excited to be able to actually KNOW what the problem was - until then I could only speculate on different causes... knowing would lead me to abortion options that actually worked, and prevent me from continually trying to treat conditions I didn't have (such as ALL the rounds of antibiotics I took because they thought it was sinusitis). But my excitement was soon stifled by the revelation that there was no cure for this problem and, because of my lack of medical insurance, my treatment options were next to none. This was devastating. I was going on 5 months into my current headache cycle (which I have since gone into remission - thank the universe!) and it was ruining my life. I have a 4 year old son. He would ask me if I was every going to get better :( I didn't have an answer for him. Many times I would get in the shower (to try and distract my nerves from the pain) and have to yell for him, crying and screaming, begging him to bring me my pills (caffeine pills - one of the only things that seemed to help shorten the headache, which is a terrible solution because of the side effects and residual headaches caused by the caffeine). The only other thing that seemed to help was vigorous exercise to induce heavy breathing and high heart rate right at the onset of the headache - this would still take about 20 minutes, and if I didn't catch it in time it wouldn't work at all. I had considered suicide - and if it weren't for my son I probably would have. It is heartbreaking to not be able to explain to him why I cry all the time, or why we can't go to the park, or why I am so tired.
I am new to this problem - when the headaches started 4 years ago I had no idea that this was going to be a life long burden. Because I don't have a real doctor, I don't really have anywhere to turn for help. I've been seen in the ER multiple times, in which they would usually insinuate that I am a drug seeker (even after telling them that narcotics aren't going to do my any good) or tell me that they don't know how to help me at all. The stress of everything is very overwhelming. Even in remission I am constantly waiting for the shadows - for an indication that Hell has returned; worrying about the burden it puts on my family; wondering if I'm going to be able to get through another cycle. Without being able to get a proper diagnosis I am at a loss while at my job; left to try and deal with the debilitation because my superiors don't recognize my problem as a medical condition. I feel incredibly stuck in a powerless situation. I am very thankful to have fallen into this website - I feel like just being able to talk to people that actually UNDERSTAND my problem will be so helpful to me (as opposed to people that think they understand, followed with stories about their migraines and other headaches that don't even compare to the Demon.) To be able to read what other people are doing to try and seek relief, and how they have overcome their small and large struggles with the affliction gives me hope that I can make it through, and that life will prevail even when I wish that it wouldn't. I apologize for the novel - lol.... I just wanted to express my gratitude for the ability to be able to connect with fellow sufferers :) Thank you so much |
Title: Re: Very thankful to have found this place Post by Venus on Jul 24th, 2013 at 5:57am
I live in North Carolina. As far as my medical history goes as pertaining to this problem - I have had teeth pulled, I have been treated for chronic sinusitis, I have been treated for chronic ear infection (sometimes my right eardrum swells when I have an attack) and I have seen an opthamologist (who removed a very unsightly tumor from my left eye but informed me that my pupil dilation was not a problem being caused by dysfunction in the eye). All while I was still married and had medical insurance. As much as I most certainly agree with you about needing to find a good neurologist - like I said before, professional medical treatment really isn't a viable option for me. I am a single parent, work 2 jobs, and have no medical insurance. I could apply for NC state medicaid, but they will force me to take child support out on the father of my child. That is something that I just can't bring myself to do, not because I don't think he should pay - I deserve the money, but because he can not afford to pay; so if I make him pay child support he can not afford to live, or have anywhere to live, and then my son doesn't get to see his father anymore because he is homeless/has no electricity/has no food... My son getting to see his father is more important to me than getting child support, but unfortunately it is a very stupid clause to be able to qualify for any sort of financial assistance. They do not care if you already have a verbal agreement, or if you agree that child support is unnecessary - it is not an option. I have never felt more stuck in my life. With that being said, I am more than well acquainted with exactly what cluster headaches are and most of the other disorders that mimic/present themselves with similar symptoms. I have spent the last 3 years vigorously researching everything I could possibly think of to figure out what is wrong with me so that I could try and help myself. I also have the advantage of being well studied in various branches of medical science. I mainly study infectious disease and the mechanisms that certain viral and bacterial organisms use in correlation with the bodies own function, but am well coursed on basic nerve function, advance anatomy, and general immune response process. I actually study these things for fun to break up the monotony of quantum physics and chemistry. I have spoken with a neurologist about my problem (I come in contact with them along with various other medical specialists at one of my jobs) but have never officially been seen by one, thus never having a "proper" in my medical records diagnosis. I do understand your concern with self diagnosis and I COMPLETELY agree; if there was any way that I could go and see a doctor that didn't involve hurting my little boy I promise I would. If you know of another option that doesn't involve forcing me to take out child support or paying thousands of dollars that I don't have PLEASE PLEASE let me know. This is RUINING my life. But, as of now, like previously stated I am pretty stuck. They won't even treat me at the emergency room anymore because they think that I am a drug seeker (I can only assume due to my only symptom being "mind crushing headache" that they can't find any cause for, and my battle with adult onset acne [which makes me look like a meth addict] that I would also very much LOVE to see a doctor about) even after blatantly stating that narcotics would not help me.
Thank you for the letter about cluster headaches to help my employers understand what is going on. At one of my jobs they are very understanding, but at the other job no matter how I try to explain it they are still under the impression that I can just suck it up and keep working. It probably won't change anything, but them understanding will make it easier to explain why I have to spend 45 minutes in the cooler banging my head and rocking back and forth without seeming like a crazy person. Thank you SO much for the advice about the wielding o2 - I am well aware that the most recommended abortive treatment is oxygen, but it is virtually unobtainable without a doctor. I am also going to try the vitamin/mineral/fish oil treatment. I have read about endless possible otc home treatment options (such as chlorophyll) but hardly any have had any real study to back it's claim. I would love to be able to see a doctor and have a long term treatment plan, but for right now I will settle for anything that will help me get through this one headache at a time one day at a time. Until I can solve my insurance problem, that is all I can really do. |
Title: Re: Very thankful to have found this place Post by wimsey1 on Jul 24th, 2013 at 8:14am
Wow...your story is both complicated and compelling. Out of curiosity, what are you studying? You mention several areas for fun, and it sounds like you are engaged in an academic program for chemistry. Or is that fun too? Has nothing to do with the topic at hand, but working two jobs and raising a family while going to school is exactly what I did. I'm glad for it, but can't imagine doing it again.
As for your CHs...clearly you are going to need prevents and aborts that do not require a Rx. If you research this site long enough, you will find many otc suggestions as replacements for what is normally a Rx. Right now, the most popular and apparently effective is the Vitamin D3 regimen, but there are others. For example, search "kudzu." For aborts, energy drinks and high flow O2. Again, you can find a way around the need for Rx for the O2 and the drinks are available everywhere. There are other "tricks" used for aborts, which sometimes work for some people. It's mostly trial and error until you find something for you: vigorous exercise, frozen peas on the affected side, head stuck in front of the freezer or a/c, lots and lots of water, intentional hyperventilation etc. These aren't always the best way to go but can work. Hang in there, good luck, and God bless. lance |
Title: Re: Very thankful to have found this place Post by Mike NZ on Jul 24th, 2013 at 5:40pm Quote:
Chemistry being monotonous is easy to understand, but quantum mechanics? That is much more fun by far although for many it is enough to give them a headache. You really seem to be stuck between a rock and a hard place over the rules around getting assistance. This is one thing that you need to make your own decision, but from what you've said it is very obvious that your love for your son is more important that your CHs. Since we know what CHs are it really shows how important he is to you. Do try the vitamin D3 approach. It has worked very well for a lot of us, so hoping it can work for you too. For oxygen, many people who have been unable to get medical oxygen have resorted to obtaining welding oxygen instead, just not telling anyone that they will be breathing it. Instead they come out with reasons like oxygenating a fish tank and similar. As Lance said, check out things like energy drinks which can for many reduce the intensity and duration of a CH. Keep reading and asking questions, you'll learn a lot. |
Title: Re: Very thankful to have found this place Post by Venus on Jul 24th, 2013 at 8:57pm
To answer everyone's questions - my primary interest is in Physics - quantum physics, astrophysics... ect. But unfortunately that is not a very good career choice, so I major in chemistry and minor in physics. I study medical science because it interests me. Quantum mechanics is VERY exciting and intriguing - physics in general is probably my favorite thing in the universe (because it dictates the being of our universe... you see what I did there? lol). But it can make for some pretty dry reading and sometimes I need some good ol' fashion medical horror (infectious disease) to liven in up a little bit sometimes lol.
I very much don't want CH to ruin my life (like they have been) but my son loves his father, and if he couldn't see him because of me it would break my heart - and I can't live with that. I would rather my own life be ruined than to ruin the life of a innocent little boy who deserves better than that. While I was researching CH I read a very short (one or two sentences) passage that said there might be a link between D3 and CH - but it was not very informative and mentioned it more as a long shot theory instead of actual information. I find this VERY interesting - when I was pregnant I had a horrid D3 deficiency. They told me that if I didn't start taking tones of it, my baby was going to be born with rickets. I have a slight allergy to sunlight (it causes me to get physically sick), and my deficiency was so bad that it completely ruined all of my teeth (because the body can not absorb calcium without vitamin D). It never occurred to me that this was a problem that would follow me out of pregnancy. I spoke to my midwife today (we are fairly close) and told her what was going on and about the D3 - she gave me a good dosage plan for someone my size (I only weigh 100lbs) and I just took my first one with dinner. I am hoping that even if this doesn't cure my problem, it will help allow me longer remission or shorter cycles. Also - I am very fortunate because my brother is an ex military wielder - who now works for a company that fabricates exhaust pipes for various machinery, and has plenty of access to wielding o2 tanks. I never would have thought of it on my own and am SO INCREDIBLY thankful that someone mentioned it here and gave me access to information on how to use it. All of you have been very helpful and it feels nice to be reassured that I am in fact not stuck, I can help myself, and it will get better. Thank you so much |
Title: Re: Very thankful to have found this place Post by Mike NZ on Jul 24th, 2013 at 11:59pm
I've met some extremely good chemistry professors with amazing skills at solving Schroedingers equation for complex organic molecules (often seeming to be more skilled at this than the physics ones). It is a fascinating area, especially when you get to understand the equations behind it. Truely mind bending stuff when you first start to get to grips with it though.,
For the D3 approach you've figured out with your nurse, do give the details as it is likely that it may be lower than what is required. Batch is the expert in this area, so if he doesn't respond here I'd send him a PM. It looks like you're also picking up other useful info. I hope this helps to make a difference. |
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