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Title: The devil has returned after nearly 3 years... Post by Yvie on Aug 3rd, 2013 at 3:37pm
Hello my fellow sufferers. I've been suffering from clusters for nearly 10 years now, usually with a cycle of dancing with the devil for a month or two and gladly bidding him adieu for 2 years at a time. My last remission was blissfully long at 2 years, 10 months. Alas, he has reared his ugly head again and made my life hell for the last 3 weeks. I have a rare day here and there where I am pain free and the happiest person you'd ever want to meet. It's amazing what NOT feeling pain for even a few hours can do to your mood, attitude and feeling towards life in general. I've learned to be suspicious of those days though because I pay for it dearly. The most intense, GOD AWFUL attacks always hit immediately after. What a tease they are.
I have two young children, 2 and 7, who I unfortunately have been terrifying during my "episodes" as my husband has come to call them. God bless him for understanding and doing his best to shield our girls and offer comfort to me where/when he can. He's amazing and I'm so thankful to have him there during the 1-3 hours that I'm sobbing and screaming and slurring profanities and begging any power that be to make the pain stop...on the nights where the pain has been so intense and lasted so long, that by the time they leave, I have literally passed out on the floor and he picks me up and carries me back to our bed. My mother also suffered with clusters and the lucky b**** has been cluster free for over 10 years now. I'm hopeful that eventually I'll be able to say the same, if these things are genetic and follow suit. My bouts usually only last for a month or so, and for that I am also thankful. I have seen so many of you that suffer chronically or months on end before going into remission. God love you all, because I don't even know how you are able to maintain any level of sanity or positivity. I'm right in the middle of the muck right now, pain at a constant 5-7 with peaks hitting a damn 82. Praying daily that today is the last day, that tomorrow the devil will have gone and I can cry tears of joy and relief...no more fear of what the next 10 minutes will bring or terror when I feel that familiar tension in the back of my neck and blurred vision in my right eye. God love you all -- as much as life sucks right now, as much as I know life sucks for you too...I'm thankful that I'm not alone and that somewhere out there, people know exactly what I'm feeling |
Title: Re: The devil has returned after nearly 3 years... Post by Mike NZ on Aug 3rd, 2013 at 5:49pm
Hi Yvie and welcome
From your description of your CH lasting 1-3 hours it sounds like you don't have anything to abort a CH when you get one. Have you tried using oxygen or injectable imitrex for your CHs? They can both kill off a CH in under 10 minutes, which is life changing compared to going through the torture of a full CH. Using oxygen at 25lpm and a non-rebreather mask I can kill mine off in about 5 minutes, which is simply life changing. Similarly have you got anything to help prevent CHs? Something like verapamil or lithium? Preventives can help cut down how many CHs we get. Tell us more about how you deal with your CHs and we can help suggest somethings that might help. |
Title: Re: The devil has returned after nearly 3 years... Post by BarbaraD on Aug 4th, 2013 at 7:19am
What Joe said... and YOU are not ALONE.. :-*
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