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Felicia CH.com Old Timer Offline You can never change me. Posts: 318 Daytona Beach, FL, USA Gender:	%$@#!$&%#(updated) Jul 26^th, 2008 at 5:32pm Thank you. Needed to rant. Enjoy the rest of your day. Broken
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BarbaraD CH.com Alumnus Offline Hugs to ya Posts: 8333 Douglasville, TX Gender:	*Re: %$@#!$&%#* Reply #1 - Jul 26^th, 2008 at 5:40pm OK -- Glad you got that off your chest. Hugs BD
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Reply #2 - Jul 26^th, 2008 at 5:56pm

Sorry but my mother has just broke my last nerve and I needed some where to rant. For those of you who do not know, my mom and I haven't been on even close to good terms for almost 4 months now. Today she decided to start crap in front of my 10 year old sister(not April or Beth but my other sister Julia) and is using her against me in our dispute. So by the looks of it Dad and I will be going to court soon to have it changed so that I no longer have to see my mother because every time I do I end up in tears after she leaves (I hate crying). As for my sister I'm hoping that her father (mom's 2nd ex) is willing to let me see her on his time. Just thought I should explain the situation.

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Jonny Ex Member	*Re: %$@#!$&%#* Reply #3 - Jul 26^th, 2008 at 7:06pm Sorry your going through this, kid.........
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DennisM1045 CH.com Alumnus Offline One wave at a time! Posts: 3437 Haverhill, Massachusetts, USA Gender:	*Re: %$@#!$&%#* Reply #4 - Jul 26^th, 2008 at 8:28pm -Dennis-
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Tiannia CH.com Alumnus Offline Life does not apologies...... Posts: 3422 Eugene, OR Gender:	*Re: %$@#!$&%#* Reply #5 - Jul 27^th, 2008 at 2:57am Sorry hun that you are going thru this. The only advise I can give, is tell you little sis that you love her and let her know that when you can talk that you will be there for her and explain anything she asks. It is very hard in situations like that. Love and light. Tia
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mummymac CH.com Alumnus Offline Kissed Donny Osmond and proud of it Posts: 943 Jersey\|United_Kingdom\|europe Gender:	*Re: %$@#!$&%#* Reply #6 - Jul 27^th, 2008 at 5:16am Familys can give us the hardest of times but also the very best of times. Hoping things get easier for you real soon, hang in there
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Charlie CH.com Alumnus Offline Happy to be here Posts: 18971 Jamestown, NY Gender:	*Re: %$@#!$&%#* Reply #7 - Jul 27^th, 2008 at 7:06pm I've had a little crap from families over the years but nothing as crappy as what you say. I wish you all the luck in the world. Charlie
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Em CH.com Alumnus Offline I wanna go... Posts: 830 St Peter Port, Guernsey. Gender:	*Re: %$@#!$&%#* Reply #8 - Jul 28^th, 2008 at 8:21am Hey Broken, Sorry to hear about what you've been going through. I'm not on great terms with my mother either because of things that happened when I was a teenager, so if you want to talk about it, please feel free to PM me. Em
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thebbz Ex Member	*Re: %$@#!$&%#* Reply #9 - Jul 28^th, 2008 at 11:05am Try to hang tough. Sorry to hear it but you are a strong girl and have many good things in your future. all the best,I hate it for ya. thebb
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Reply #10 - Jul 28^th, 2008 at 12:54pm

Thank you all. It means the world to me. If no one minds I'm gonna let a little of what I'm thinking slip out.
I'm a good kid. Yes I've had my mistakes but I've always done my damndest to fix them. I've never been arrested, pregnant, failled a class, done drugs, or given up on something I believed in. I keep my family and friends in mind in what ever I do and I even started looking for colleges at the begining of 10th grade while my friends were out doing god knows what. My little sisters have always come first and though I've been hard on them I think I've been fair. I'm a straight A student, on my school colorguard team, in the school choir, work for my grandmother that has cancer every other weekend, and do just about any chore asked of me. Yes, I'm a bit independent and prefer to be by myself a lot. Yes, I don't usually talk about my feelings but I'm working really hard on that. Yes, I have a sour mouth occasionaly and am stubborn as hell but when is that a flaw instead of a personality trait? No one else has ever seen me as a "bad" kid(at least not to my knowlage and if you have please let me know) so why is it she has to treat me like one and tell me I'm ungrateful? I don't really ask for much and if there's something I want then I'll get it myself. Maybe it's just me being a dumb kid but are all these things making me such a bad person as that my own mother has to treat me like shit to the point where I can't stand to even be around her any more? I just don't get it. If there's some one reading this that could shead a little light on where I went so terribly wrong please don't be afraid to do so. Embarrassed

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I won't let myself down even if it means I can't make you proud. Its my life I gotta do what I feel is right. No one can stop me now. This clusterhead child is gonna show the world how

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LeLimey Ex Member	*Re: %$@#!$&%#* Reply #11 - Jul 28^th, 2008 at 7:12pm Felicia pm me a number where I can give you a call if you want to chat honeybun lots of love Helen xxx PS Hoping so much to meet you this weekend!
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Reply #12 - Jul 29^th, 2008 at 7:04am

I'm so sorry to hear this Felicia and that you're being made to feel this way. To me, you sound like someone who's growing into a fine, independent, strong woman! Don't ever be ashamed of that. I have a small stubborn streak too. I like to think of it as a trait rather than a flaw!

Sending you some positive dust to help you along in this tough time.

Em
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Reply #13 - Aug 18^th, 2008 at 3:23pm

Yep it's back. Me and my bitch fit about my mother. I'm sure none of you missed it. Anyway, Dad and I just got back from mediation which is a bunch of B.S. if you ask me. I didn't expect anything to get resolved but cheese and freakin' cracker do those guys do anything?! Half the time the dumb sh*t sat there and stared at us. But to the point, she pissed me off, cried a lot, and bent every thing to sound like I was the problem and not her. As usual it's ALL my fault. Now we have to go see some other nut in a suit(no offence to who it offends) in a few weeks to try once again. God I hate this! Why can't she just leave me the hell alone?!?! Dad and I stopped for ice cream to make me feel better I think but right now its melting because I just don't care enough right now to eat it. I guess we'll see what happens but you'll probably see this post again. Hope every one's day is going better than mine is.

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I won't let myself down even if it means I can't make you proud. Its my life I gotta do what I feel is right. No one can stop me now. This clusterhead child is gonna show the world how

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Reply #14 - Aug 18^th, 2008 at 3:37pm

My 2 cents.

If this is anything like the situation I have with my daughter, son and ex. She takes it out on them if they show any type of love or caring towards me.

I know how I handle this on my end but at 53 it does not compair in any way with what you're dealing with.

So sorry that you are having these issues. At a sweet sixteen, straight A's, honor roll, involved with student activities -- my opinion is you should be able to just enjoy life. Dealing with this stuff and being as you are school wise -- your parents are so very fortunate. Heck, my problem child went into the Marines to avoid prision or death.

PM me if you want my cell number and some one to listen.

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no-one CH.com Hall of Famer Offline aude sapere cogito ergo disce pati Posts: 554 NY Gender:	*Re: %$@#!$&%#(updated)* Reply #15 - Aug 19^th, 2008 at 3:04am I love you and you know you can count on me for what ever you need I will always be here for you love you b
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Reply #16 - Aug 19^th, 2008 at 3:49am

Broken

I am so sorry that you are having such a rough time

Life is tough enough at 16 when every thing justs plods along, when the pot is stirred and life is mixed up all which ways it makes it all so much harder.

A lot of people will have been through thier own pot of mixed up mess, some as the child , some as the parent, some even on both sides, which ever side it is not easy for anyone.

We can offer you support, a shoulder to lean on and an ear to listen, remember that which does not kill you makes you stronger.

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