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ChefChris CH.com Veteran Offline Posts: 245 Virginia Beach, Va Gender:	Re: Loosing My Strength(Yet another goodbye) Reply #25 - Nov 8^th, 2008 at 1:26pm I am sooo sorry for what you are going through right now. It is such a rough thing loosing a grandmother. I lost mine 13 years ago. She was an amazing woman and not a day goes by that I don't think about her. God will give you the strenth to go on. Prayer has amazing power.
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Re: Loosing My Strength(Yet another goodbye)
Reply #26 - Nov 14^th, 2008 at 6:53pm

The pain is gone. For her anyways. My mind is numb so I really don't know what to say. My head hurts(haha) and my eyes are sore. I'm just getting home from her house after being there since around 2:30. Dad came and got me from school early so I knew it was all over. My family is taking it rough and we're all just really tired. Just thought those that care should know. My grandfather is fighting hard and I've never before seen the big man cry. I'm pretty numb right now so I guess that's all. I posted this before but I wanted to put it up again in memory of her. Thank you for the support and love you all have given me the past few weeks. It means the world to me and you'll never truly know. And though I'm not to smiling just yet, I will be hopefully soon. Here is Fly Away.

On feathered white wings,
I watch you fly away.
To a glowing place,
where cherib angels play.

Tears fill my eyes,
as I stare into the sun.
Scared and now so alone,
with no one or where to run.

The sky opens up,
just enough for you to slip through.
Then closes behind you,
me left wondering what to do.

Where do I go from here?
With no you to light my way.
Why did you have to leave?
While I have to stay.

It's not fair damn it!
I hit the ground, scraping my knee.
My heart shakes with sobs.
I only pray that you can't see.

Don't see my weakness,
be blind to my pain.
Your own tears come down,
they drench me in the rain.

You're missing me,
only half as much as I miss you.
I have your memory,
but only the real thing will do.

The sky is closed and dark now,
out of life you've gone away.
I can smile now though,
because I know you can stay.

~~Broken~~ Felicia Cry

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catlind CH.com Moderator CH.com Alumnus Offline Surf's Up! Posts: 4536 Weaverville NC Gender:	Re: Loosing My Strength(Another goodbye)Final Update Reply #27 - Nov 14^th, 2008 at 7:13pm Oh Felicia, my heart aches for you I'm so sorry that you are having to go through all this. Keep her memory close to your heart, time will ease your pain as you celebrate her life. hugs Cat
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Jonny Ex Member	Re: Loosing My Strength(Another goodbye)Final Update Reply #28 - Nov 14^th, 2008 at 7:18pm Sorry kid
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deltadarlin CH.com Alumnus Offline I love YaBB 1G - SP1! Posts: 3823 Downsville LA Gender:	Re: Loosing My Strength(Another goodbye)Final Update Reply #29 - Nov 14^th, 2008 at 7:38pm I am so sorry.
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barry_sword CH.com Alumnus Offline Mountain Biking Keeps Me Sane Posts: 3947 Bracebridge, Canada Gender:	Re: Loosing My Strength(Another goodbye)Final Update Reply #30 - Nov 14^th, 2008 at 7:41pm So very sorry Felicia, so very sorry. Our deepest condolences. B&A
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Melissa CH.com Moderator CH.com Alumnus Offline Don't give up! Posts: 7238 Central WI, USA Gender:	Re: Loosing My Strength(Another goodbye)Final Update Reply #31 - Nov 14^th, 2008 at 8:18pm Losing a loved one is never easy. My sympathies to you and your family sweetie. hugs & love, mel
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cash5542 CH.com Hall of Famer Offline I love YaBB 1G - SP1! Posts: 1243 x1\|Ocean Pines\|USA\|usa\|498\|141\|MD,Maryland Gender:	Re: Loosing My Strength(Another goodbye)Final Update Reply #32 - Nov 14^th, 2008 at 10:08pm Felicia, I am so sorry for the loss to you and your family. Death is so hard. You have such a gift to be able to express your pain and memories through your poetry. Your writing is beautiful. Charlotte
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George CH.com Moderator CH.com Alumnus Offline Black-Billed Magpie Posts: 8126 Boise, Idaho USA Gender:	Re: Loosing My Strength(Another goodbye)Final Update Reply #33 - Nov 14^th, 2008 at 11:14pm I'm very sorry for your loss, Felicia. All the best to you and your family. George
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flipperlips CH.com Alumnus Offline Live, Laugh, Love Posts: 935 Mcallen, TX Gender:	Re: Loosing My Strength(Another goodbye)Final Update Reply #34 - Nov 14^th, 2008 at 11:18pm I'm sorry for your loss Felicia. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs Jen
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Charlie CH.com Alumnus Offline Happy to be here Posts: 18971 Jamestown, NY Gender:	Re: Loosing My Strength(Another goodbye)Final Update Reply #35 - Nov 15^th, 2008 at 12:16am Sorry to hear this and I'm thinking of you and yours. You're gonna do all right, you know. Charlie
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DennisM1045 CH.com Alumnus Offline One wave at a time! Posts: 3437 Haverhill, Massachusetts, USA Gender:	Re: Loosing My Strength(Another goodbye)Final Update Reply #36 - Nov 15^th, 2008 at 6:10am May peace find its way quickly back into your hearts. I'm so sorry for your loss. -Dennis-
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Jackie CH.com Moderator CH.com Alumnus Offline Go For It!!! Posts: 5903 Goshen, IN Gender:	Re: Loosing My Strength(Another goodbye)Final Update Reply #37 - Nov 15^th, 2008 at 7:11am Deepest sympathies to you, your family and all who knew and loved her. Most sincerely, Jackie
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minnie

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Re: Loosing My Strength(Another goodbye)Final Update
Reply #38 - Nov 15^th, 2008 at 5:38pm

Felicia,
I'm sorry about your Grandma,she was a great woman.She Loves you,Julia and Matt very much (A grandparents Love is eternal).When I saw Julia recently I told her you all will have a very Loving,very tough Angel watching over your whole family.The difference is now she'll be able to watch over you all the time.I know you have amazing memories of her.One day when you have children telling them stories of her will keep her memory alive forever.

Cry

Minnie

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DonnaH_again Ex Member	Re: Loosing My Strength(Another goodbye)Final Update Reply #39 - Nov 15^th, 2008 at 9:06pm Very sorry for your losses, Felicia. It's such an intense pain. I pray for your strength and that your friends here can help you bear the sorrow.
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Re: Loosing My Strength(Another goodbye)Final Update
Reply #40 - Nov 16^th, 2008 at 8:41am

Felicia,
On Oct 29, after 103 yrs on this earth, I watched my grandmother peacefully slip away. I have a hole in my world, just like you do.
Somehow, for you as well as for me, this hole will slowly fill with the wonderful memories we made with our Grandmas, and they will NEVER leave us. GG will be around, watching over those she loves, just like your Grandma will.
All we have to do is acknowledge the pain, then let the love we had for them bring us memories, and the holes in our worlds will beging to mend.
My deepest sympathy, Felicia,
Cathi

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Grandma_Sweet_Boy CH.com Alumnus Offline What Goes Around Comes Around! Posts: 4496 Georgetown,Ontario Gender:	Re: Loosing My Strength(Another goodbye)Final Update Reply #41 - Nov 17^th, 2008 at 7:48pm Sorry for your loss Felicia. Hold tight to the memories of your Grandma and remember that it's okay to remember her with smiles as well as tears. Hugs Carol
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artonio7

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Re: Loosing My Strength(Another goodbye)Final Update
Reply #42 - Nov 18^th, 2008 at 7:17am

There is nothing like loosing your grandma. My heart remembers that pain even though it doesn't sting my thoughts as it did when mine first passed when I was 16.

Felicia I'm so sorry for your loss, please pass along my sympathy to all who loved and will miss your grandma. You will now have the special duty of memorializing your grandma in the way that only you can... your talent and clear voice will be a conduit which will forever let your grandma's love and influence shine.

Don't hold back the tears nor the laughter, they are the water and the wind that our hearts set sail upon.

with warm regards,
Tony

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