Enduring

It comes without warning and it comes to me fast
I know at the start how long it should last
My legs they do shake and my muscles grow weak
My eyes they lose sight except for the spot that I seek
No longer I walk for I haven't the strength
I have to keep moving, whatever its length
I rock an I craw and I'm aware of its length
I know it will pass, but not through my strength
Time it will pass for I haven't control
I don’t have the power; it's just not my role
I pray to a God I’m not sure I believe
What have I done, why won't you relieve
I despair at the thought of the next one to come
It's a part of my life and it will end with my death
My only one tolerance is I just won't accept death

I've had clusters for 25 yrs. Perhaps half that time they were chronic. I'm not taking any meds at the moment, though I have verapamil and lithium in the medicine cabinet as well as 2 large tanks of oxygen (I'm Prepare . I'm originally from Minnesota, now I live in Missouri. I use to come to this site frequently about ten years ago and it was a lifesaver.