To be honest Barry, I'm not entirely sure that *I* understand what is happening to me - traumatic brain injury covers so much and it's hard to sort through the information available on the net. Sometimes medical info from the net is more harmful than helpful.
What I do know is that things aren't 'right'. Some info I have found to be common among all TBI situations is:
Quote:Symptoms of a TBI can be mild, moderate, or severe, depending on the extent of the damage to the brain. Outcome can be anything from complete recovery to permanent disability or death.
Some symptoms are evident immediately, while others do not surface until several days or weeks after the injury.
Most patients with severe TBI, if they recover consciousness, suffer from cognitive disabilities, including the loss of many higher level mental skills.
The most common cognitive impairment among severely head-injured patients is memory loss, characterized by some loss of specific memories and the partial inability to form or store new ones. Some of these patients may experience post-traumatic amnesia (PTA), either anterograde or retrograde. Anterograde PTA is impaired memory of events that happened after the TBI, while retrograde PTA is impaired memory of events that happened before the TBI.
Then there is a laundry list of symptoms that go with it, I've bolded those that I've been experiencing:
Quote:Signs and Symptoms
Signs and symptoms of neurological impairment caused by TBI depend on which structures in the brain are damaged.
Common symptoms include:
* Anxiety, nervousness
* Behavioral changes:
o difficulty controlling urges (disinhibition)
o impulsiveness
o inappropriate laughter
o irritability
* Blurry or double vision (diplopia)
* Depression
* Difficulty concentrating or thinking
* Difficulty finding words or understanding the speech of others (aphasia)
* Difficulty swallowing (dysphagia)
* Dizziness
* Headache
* Incoordination of movements
* Lightheadedness
* Loss of balance; difficulty walking or sitting
* Loss of memory
* Muscle stiffness and/or spasms
* Seizures
* Sleep difficulties (more or less sleep than pre-injury)
* Slurred and/or slowed speech
* Tingling, numbness, pain, or other sensations
* Sense of spinning (vertigo )
* Weakness in one or more limbs, facial muscles, or on an entire side of the body
While I received immediate emergency treatment after the 2 severe concussions that resulted in unconsciousness and convulsive seizures, the doctors dropped the ball IMO as most sites explain how standard imaging techniques don't do a good enough job detecting TBI:
Quote:X-rays, MRIs, and CT scans can detect fractures, hemorrhages, swelling, and certain kinds of tissue damage, but they do not always detect traumatic brain injury. This is because TBI, especially in its milder forms, often involves subtle traumas scattered among neurons and supportive tissues, stretched or damaged axon membranes (diffuse axonal injury), chemical injury caused by the biochemical cascade of toxic substances in the brain tissues, and cellular dysfunction. These changes often cannot be found with standard imaging procedures. More sophisticated imaging techniques that measure brain cell metabolism, such as single-photon emission computed tomography (SPECT) or positron emission tomography (PET), can help diagnose such injuries.
Bottom line is that at the time of the 2 most severe head injuries, the medical treatment probably wasn't adequate, but what is done is done, and I am not one to go looking for a person/place to blame. What interests me i=nowis finding the specialists needed to ensure, if not *full* recovery, then the best possible outcome I can get. The hardest thing for me to deal with is the memory losses - it's difficult to lose an entire month of your life and have no way to know if what you are being told is truth or not, and secondly, the episodes when 'the world just seems wrong' - I don't know how to describe it accurately, it's like a time slip, like the laws of physics and the universe suddenly stop applying to my brain.
So yes, I can use all the extra prayers, vibes, positive energy and support I can get. I will control those things that I can, and those that I can't I will work to putting aside and not worrying about before I land myself with a full nervous breakdown hehe.
Sorry to ramble on so long and with so much info, thought it might help folks to understand some of what was going on.
Your help is much appreciated, be it from info, prayers or just by being there to listen

Luv Cat (I think I can say I'm officially dain bramaged now LOL)