I am starting to hate everyyone I know and see.  I look around and see people complaining about stupid bullshit and all I can think of, is that none of them know what real suffering is>  I am becoming a miserable, tired cranky bitch.  Nobody understands the pain we have, and if I hear one more person say they have migraines too, or why dont I try to go take a nap if Im so tired,I am going to really blow my top.

I hate what these damn things are turning me into.  I am not like this at all.  I wouldnt wish CH on anyone, but I really do sometimes wish that everyone around me could feel just for five minutes a kip 10.  Maybe then people wouldnt think that I am just a crybaby.

Ohwell,  I guess that after only two weeks, I just aint used to things yet.  I feel that I can go on CH.com and let loose because only the people who have felt this pain and misery can maybe understand my hateful feelings. 

Whew,  I think I feel a little better already!!!!!!
Chris

chrisw wrote on Apr 10^th, 2009 at 11:39pm:

why can't you just take some ibuprofen? it is nice to vent to a group of people that don't compare your headaches to meegraines

I struggled with this my last cycle (ended on Feb. 28th).  Taking heed in this website, plus just hanging around those who I live with, was my only salvation from smacking heads together.

This might sound a little harsh, but it's said with the utmost of love and concern:

Other people understanding your pain is something over which you have ZERO control. Start worrying about the shit over which you DO have some control.

"I was just driving along, and out of nowhere this rusty steel horseshoe spike came right through the windshield and buryed itself in my skull."

"Oh, I know. I hate it when that happens."

You are in a position where the thoughts, feelings, actions of others are controlling your life. Stop it. Those of us here know what you're going through - vent away. It feels good to get it off your chest. But when you're done venting, get busy and do two things: battle the beast with everything you've got, and look for opportunites to do some good.

Then, if your friends, family, and colleagues still need some help "understanding," go to this link, print it off, and hand it to them:

Multimedia File Viewing and Clickable Links are available for Registered Members only!!  You need to or

This doesn't have to change who you are.

Take a deep breathe my friend.

the fact it that if one has only experienced the pain of a paper cut then that is the ultimate pain.

Pain happens to be individualized

Good luck

If it makes YOU feel better that everyone you come in contact with, understand...tell them to type in cluster headaches on 'You Tube'.

thanks everyone,  boy, let me tell you,  PMS+CH=1 bitchy girl.  I dont know what came over me, but its great to come on here and vent a little, and know that the people here will understand.   Have had a little sleep in the last couple days, and I feel much better.

I hope one day I can offer the support to one of you , that you have offered to me.

love and hugs
Chris

  Sometimes a hug helps.  Hang in there, sweetie!

Jeannie

TIMEOUT UMP!!!

              Alright, here we are in the bottom of the 9th. 2 outs and the string is out on ya, The team needs a hit and your the one we want up there swinging, but you cant be listening to all the hecklers in the crowd. They can get pretty nasty over there in the peanut gallory. Now take a deep breath, Be ready for the curveball and CRUSH anything that comes over the plate. Now get back in the game.


                            PLAY BALL !!!!

                                                  COACH BILL

           

ClusterChuck wrote on Apr 11^th, 2009 at 12:32am:


thank you Chuckie.  I may need this visual.

Charlotte

Linda and Cathi both had my suggestion.  Along with that I'm with Brew.  I know it is hard, but I've had to learn to deal with the pain and go on with life anyway.  I work in a school, and have a bunch of preschoolers that are my friends.  They don't understand when I get grouchy and upset easily.  I've had to learn to control my emotions until the hit just gets to bad, or the Horner's gets to pronounced.  (Three year olds come up with some wild questions when my face gets all screwed up)  I then retreat to the office for a little while, then paste a smile on my face and go back out to deal with the kids.  The emotional price is high, and sometimes I take it out on the wife when I get home and I try to come on here and read others experiences to put mine in perspective.  I also try to spend some time praying for others here, and a couple of friends who have cancer.  That does wonders for my perspective.

Use us to vent, then get back out there and LIVE life to the fullest.

Jerry

The only thing I c an do is to walk away from the ignorant people who don't understand.  I work with mostly great people who do understand.  I wink at people when mine are hitting since my left eye droops and twitches, so the running gag is who is going to buy me the pirates patch first...LOL 

Laughter is trully the best medicine.  Pain drugs don't work for me so I have to find releif anywhere I can, and educate as many people as I can along the way.  This year is my worst in the 12+ years I have suffered and I don't know if the day break I have now will last until tommorrow, but I'll rejoice in it today.