I hd posted back in April about preventing my cycle using RC Seeds. I was able to bust my cycle last year in a week with this method and i believe that it can work but unfortunately for me this time it only seems to have postponed my cycle. It started up again in the beginning of June and boy did it come back with a vengeance.

My attacks have been brutal. In the past I would have just a few K10's mixedin with mostly k4-7s. This cycle I am getting 2-3 k10s a night with the occasional 4th mixed in every few day (and at completely different times) just to add some icing on my cake.

As usual, my life is completely in turmoil. Friends 7 family try to understand but lets be honest no one who hasn't experienced what we live through can really understand. It really sucks and due to the strange nature of my cycle i find myself getting anxiety about whether or not i am going chronic. The very idea that that is possible makes my stomach churn.

I am considering going back to my nuero for the meds, the thought of doing so bothers me but I would do anything not to feel this way so if I must i must. The day after hangovers are  terrible I am just limping through life. I was going through some serious personal crisis before this episode hit so now i don't know what is beating me up worse, the depression or the ch's...probably a bit of both.

I wish the rest of you many pain free days. We survive, we learn we get through these and hope that in the near future they find a fool proof way to treat us. Nothing is more  frustrating than having one med work and then the next cycle it is absolutely worthless. You guys all know this, we learn it the hard way through blood sweat & tears. i am praying for a better tomorrow cuz I cant take too many more of the crappy todays.