E-Double wrote on Jul 23rd, 2009 at 4:52pm:What's up dude
Hang in there.
First things first...don't let them get you down. It's just pain
You're life shouldn't be any less productive IF you develop truly good coping mechanisms. I haven't let these interfere with my career since the beginning hardships subsided.
First of all, thanks for the positive outlook/response, I know you are right - nothing gets better by sulking. In a way having kids make things different. True I am more afraid of not coping, but on the other hand there is no longer an option to quit. That is good in a perverse way.
Given that my variant so far has been episodic, after the initial 4-5 years I have to realise that so far I've had it easy compared to others. However, I do remember how I absolutely screwed up school during those years. I remember around wednesday/thursday I couldn't even get up from bed. Then I stayed home with the pain and slept away all the pain-free hours, to try to get things together to monday morning. Luckily for me we have some sort of test you can take and still get into univeristy even though your grades are not up to par. And mine where abysmal.
So I guess it's just that old remembrance and fear that comes back to haunt me.... but you are right. I know you are.
Quote:Then obtain a fantastic abortive....Oxygen!
Yes, I understand that oxygene can be good. I've checked around and I do believe it is available in sweden as well. I will absolutely keep it in mind when visiting the doctor.
Quote:By 2006 I was off all meds and have just used oxygen for 99.9% of attacks. If desperate I have used a jab of trex or zyprexa.
In the summer of '07 I did go inpatient for a week for a break, which did help me achieve some level of humanity again as I hadn't slept more than 2hrs of broken sleep for a couple of months.
Since I have been on a tear....
Sorry, my english i so-so. What's inpatient? ..and what is "been on a tear?" Basically what you are saying is that the oxygene works for you but you still have to wake up with the crap, manage the attack, then you need to get to a point where you can go back to sleep?
How long time does it take from waking up to being able to fall asleep again and how long are the attacks? Thankfully, I have not had nightly attacks yet in this or the last episode. Last episode the came at 23:30 almost on the dot. This time they are going heywire. From 0830, a common time seems to be 1330 and also 1900-2000. Today I had the latest so far 2130, but on the other hand i got one at 0900 as well. So that is new to me, figure it might stabilize - I am still in the beginning.
Quote:My daughter dresses up my oxygen tanks as if they were dolls lol.
Yeah, kids are great for bringing joy to almost any situation.

My youngest is about the only thing that can make me smile the hour after a "session".