I have been a member since 2004 but I haven't been active since then as I only seem to pop on to the site during cycle...simply to remind myself that people just like me actually do exist. If I had a nickle for every person who said to me "oh, I get migraines too" I would be a billionaire by now. I know they mean well, but it's so frustrating (to say the least). So, then I come here and read some posts and know that I am not as alone in this as I often feel.
I am 35 yrs old and have had cluster headaches since I was 17 yrs old. I am currently in my 7th week of cycle and pray that the end is near. Although, the hits are not suggesting that remission is on its way. I get about 6 hits per night, almost every hour and a half I am awakened from the pain. Last night alone I went through two full 02 tanks. I am now sleeping on the couch every night b/c I can't take the guilt of waking my boyfriend up with every hit.
I was on verapamil for 3 years, 2 of which were HA free, but the "beast" broke his way through and last year the cycles started again so I went off of the verapamil. I am now med free, more so b/c I am so tired of polluting my body for no long term results. I have been on and off prednisone for years and I love the way I feel when I'm on it. The side effects have caught up with me though so I no longer use that either. I have found that Zomig works really well as an abortive but I can't handle the side effects. Every time I take it I feel like I'm going to have a heart attack and that scares the hell out of me. I swear by my oxygen and it truly is a wonder abortive for me. This cycle has been so bad that I am considering trying out another preventative but I have no idea what way to go.
I try so hard to stay positive and remind myself that it will pass as it eventually always does. One too many sleepless nights has caught up with me and now I just feel exhausted and frustrated. The truth is, even after 18 yrs of CH's I'm still not use to them. I truly hate that they are a part of my life. Only a CH suffer can truly understand why these things have been coined "suicide headaches!" But having gone through this so many times before I do know that there is light at the end of the tunnel.
Sorry for the not so positive post but I figure better here, where the people who read it actually understand it, rather then in my daily life where no one I know actually gets it...they all just look at me funny wondering why I always have an oxygen tank with me