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Oct 18th, 2009 at 7:04pm
 
Hi all,
My name is Andy.  I'm 49, live in the UK and used to be in anaesthetics.
I suffered from Encephalitis in 2001 - on my daughters birthday.  Not that I actually remember the birthday or anything else much for 3 months after that!
Once I  Smileyleft hospital care, the only lingering problems were a 24/7 headache at about level 5 - 8 and terrible memory retention.
My Neurologist started me on standard migraine therapies and after about 6 months of agonising pain, decided that although the MRI was basically normal, there was obviously something going on and refferred me to the National Hospital for Neurology in London, UK.
It was quickly decided that I was suffering from Cluster and treatment started on Sumitriptan, or was it Propanolol, or was it Verapimil!
The actual truth is that after 8 years I have tried just about every medication but I'll tell you about plans later.
The worst thing is that over the years I've settled on a daily average pain score of 8 out of 10 - some days I don't even remember because my wife, who cares for me brilliantly, will watch me dissolve into 10 out of 10 for as long as 12 hours and then see the 'relief' as I go back to a 7 out of 10 and can at least function to a point.
Cluster battling is my life.  In all these years I've never, not ever, had one minute without this terrible demon hacking away at my pain reserves.  It is totally chronic and yes I've thought of suicide.  My children and my wife are all I focus on to get through each 24 hour period.  I don't say '24 hour day' becuase day and night are the same - just ones dark and the other is light - the pain has no clock to guide it!
I guess like most chronic CH sufferers, we deal with every day as a fresh challenge and somehow we do it.
I have been on 4600mg of Gabapentin per day for about 2 ears now - but the meds think that recent onset disphasia (loss of speech) may be due to the high doses and have 'weaned' me down to 2400mg daily - pains still the same though!
I've tried it all, from High flow O2, IV Lidocaine, Morphine, sumitriptan, Lithium, Topiramate, Prednisolone  and so many more, it would read like the pharmacy journals!
My consultant has now been left with two options.  We're going to try Methergycide and if that fails, I'm going on the list for deep brain stimulation surgery.
Has anyone else tried Methergycide?

I guess I'm here to say two main things.
1/ It's great to find like minded sufferers an to swap our feelings to support each other and
2/ NEVER GIVE UP! - we all hate every day and yet if you're like me I still cling to the love of being alive for my family and we'll all fight on for another day of hope and equal despair - but just don't let go.  One day it'll all be better for all of us - I'm certain and I'll be there to cheer aslong with all of us.
Hi and thanks for listenig and if I can help anyone else deal with this terible evil, then drop me a post and share it - can't guarantee that I'm any use, but I promise I'll try.
Speak soon.
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Reply #1 - Oct 18th, 2009 at 7:21pm
 
I'm making a real stretch in wondering if, in fact, you have CH rather than a CLUSTER-LIKE condition.

CH, as a primary headache disorder, means that it is not caused by another disorder. What you have said is that your headache developed after another major problem, ergo, cause may be secondary outcome.

One of the diagnostic signs is that meds which normally work for CH are either erratic for CH- LIKE disorders or they not work at all.

I assume this possibility has been explored by your docs but I'd like to know before assuming that you are asking about a primary headache disorder. The medical approach is different depending on how this condition is diagnosed.

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Why not ask to see the top man in the country - Dr. Manjit Matharu at UCL. Under Patient Choice - look at the link below - you have the right to choose who you see.

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As I say, all a guess on my part but some response from you would be useful.

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Reply #2 - Oct 18th, 2009 at 7:46pm
 
Hi Bob,
Many thanks for fast reply.

I think the original Consultant at ION - Professor Peter Goadsby, thought it was CH because as a boy, I'd had terrible headaches for a while that didn't respond to normal remedies.  When I was 14, they went away.
Through the years I'd had periods of disabling headaches, but put it down to the job, the lifestyle, getting older, anything rather than search for a real reason! As the saying paraphrases, medics are the worst patients and I just kept trying over the counter meds and tried to deal with it.
Prof Goadsby thought that the headaches over the years were ECH and that the Encephalitis was either totally coincidental, or had somehow triggerred the latent ECH into CCH as some sort of 'timed trigger' that was bound to happen anyway.
My current Consultant at ION is a great lady, but she feels Methersyde or the OP are all thats left, so your giving me a new name to try is like winning our lottery.  I'm blessed with the care she tries to give me, but at a round trip of two days and 600 miles, it is a lifeline to see if there's anyone or anything else to try. - I'll start looking into it straight away.
Again many thanks Bob.
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Reply #3 - Oct 18th, 2009 at 11:01pm
 
Since we're making real stretches here, I'm going to paste in the recent recounting by Bonkers of his son's saga so far. This is another unfathomably bad one that reminds me of yours, and it brings up the promise of....now just let me explain a little here before you become too skeptical! ........ hallucinogens.

If you haven't heard about this facet yet, serious research is being done here by prestigious types at Harvard medical, and non hallucinogenic doses of hallucinogens are indeed showing some great promise for cluster treatment.

It sure as hell is something I'd try before resorting to surgery!!

Anyone interested should read everything over at clusterbusters.com.

And now for Michael's story:

"Hi all,

I suppose, if we're ever to change the legal status of perhaps the only truly effective therapy for this horrible affliction, that we should heed bobw's admonishment and "stand up and be counted."

This is the first time I've told our story publicly, but I think it's high time we joined the fray. I say "we" because I suffer along with my 25-year-old son Michael as he lays in his darkened room rocking, crying, sometimes screaming through 15-20 hours of every day. I'm 63 and retired so it's no trouble for me to be home to care for him.

His clusters began when he was 12 years old. We thought they were migraines since both my mother and I had them from our mid-teens till our early thirties. She had nothing to help her but by the mid-sixties I had found "Medihaler-Ergotamine" which remained in my pants-pocket till I was 30 and my migraines went away.

Michael was taking a shower when his first cluster struck. Like a lightning bolt, it knocked him to the ground (or rather, to the bottom of the bathtub). Scared the hell out of us! Over the next several years, he would have spells of headaches lasting from a couple of days to a couple of weeks. We tried all the drugs. Took all the tests. He was diagnosed with episodic cluster headaches about 8 years ago. Imitrex, oxygen and the narcotics all worked for varying lengths of time. The rest of them worked very little, if at all.

Then, about 4 years ago, he was involved in a particularly bad car accident where he suffered some head trauma. His headaches became chronic and increased exponentially in severity and duration. The pain was incredible. In the hospital, none of the drugs brought any relief - he was put into restraints and finally, with his neurologist's consent, an induced coma. After a week, when they brought him out of the coma, he seemed improved for a few days. Then they came back. We fired the neurologist and I took him to my pain doctor (I've had 5 vertebrae fused in my neck). He promised not to rest till he had eased Mike's suffering. And he has really tried. But to no avail. He currently has him taking 120mg. of methadone every day and it barely touches the pain.

Michael has what he calls a "background" headache which he carries around 24 hours a day. This "background" headache is interspersed with "spikes" which vary in intensity from the comparatively mild experience of feeling like someone is ripping out one of his eyeballs to that same experience intensifying till a lockjaw-like symptom occurs which precedes an abrupt loss of consciousness which can last from a few seconds to a few minutes. A "spike" usually wakes him about 4 o'clock in the morning. Any number of recurrences typically keep him abed till about 8 at night. He then gets up and watches a movie or two with his old man. Back to bed about 1 in the morning. That's his life. He can't work or go to school. He has no social life. His family's love has kept him from suicide. I respect and admire him more than you can imagine.

Then, a few months ago, I read an article in the journal "Neurology" entitled "Response of cluster headache to psilocybin and LSD." I now consider this article a "must read" for anyone suffering from, or caring for someone suffering from, the awful affliction of cluster headache.

I HAD to try this! I remembered these drugs from my "hippy" days - I grew up in the '60's - and knew that under the proper circumstances they could be taken safely, especially at sub-psychedelic dosages. So I tried to find some. I no longer take drugs recreationally, but I know people. I felt that with the people I know, along with the people my son knows, we were bound to be able to find something. No luck. We tried for nine months and couldn't find anything. Apparently, in Southern California at least, psychedelics have fallen out of favor.

Then, a couple of weeks ago, we got a phone call. Somebody knows a guy that knows a guy that knows a guy. He had heard of our plight and would give us a single dose of LSD for free. Whoopee!! I cut it in half. Michael took that half and we waited. 1/2 hour, nothing. 2 hours, 3 hours, nothing. We figured that he had either not taken enough - he experienced no psychedelic symptoms whatsoever - or that he was one of those people for whom the drug was ineffective.

Then, all of a sudden, Michael sat up, looked at me and said: "My headache's completely gone, background headache and all, completely gone." F___ing amazing! And it didn't come back, not even the background headache. We hoped that he might be one of the lucky ones who take one dose and the monster never returns. But such was not to be. On the fifth day it returned - with a vengeance. He had 5 glorious, headache-free days. He was full of joy and promise and hope. And then they came back. F___!! So far, we've been unable to find more psychedelics. But we will. And we know they work.


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CH according to Bejeeber:

Strictly relying on doctors for CH treatment is often a prescription that will keep you in a whole lot of PAIN. Doctors are WAY behind in many respects, and they are usually completely unaware of the benefits of high flow 100% O2.

There are lots of effective treatments documented at this site. Take matters into your own hands, learn as much as you can here and at clusterbusters.com, put it into practice, then tell this CH beast Jeebs said hello right before you bash him so hard with a swift uppercut knockout punch that his stupid horns go flinging right off.
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Reply #4 - Oct 19th, 2009 at 6:11am
 
As for us in the UK, it seems that ION and NHNNS is or has done some research into LSD.  The results that I have found seem to be promising.
As is the want of most governments though, I believe we have the 'catch 22' problem here.  LSD (and other phsycodelics) are regarded as 'having no medicinal uses' and although physicians can prescribe them, if you're caught with them you can be arrrested!
I guess once you prove it was properly prescribed and controlled the police would let you go.  Trouble is the prospect of a while in a cell doesn't seem to fit very well!
Still let's hope there is some progress on the horizon.  I also read that in the States there has been some work using 'magic mushrooms' that had promising results.
Has anyone out there had the deep brain implants - do they work as well as the published results suggest, because in this condition, I'd try anything!
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Reply #5 - Oct 19th, 2009 at 9:16am
 
WELL!!!--as soon as you evoke the name, Peter Goadsby, we know that god has spoken! He has quite a reputation in our group.

Your doc's present plan is reasonable and worth a try. I have not mentioned a med which several of use have found very effective. You may wish to print out this abstract and talk to your doc about....
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Headache 2001 Sep;41(8):813-6 

Olanzapine as an Abortive Agent for Cluster Headache.

Rozen TD.

Department of Neurology, Jefferson Headache Center/Thomas Jefferson University Hospital, Philadelphia, Pa.

OBJECTIVE: To evaluate olanzapine as a cluster headache abortive agent in an open-label trial. BACKGROUND: Cluster headache is the most painful headache syndrome known. There are very few recognized abortive therapies for cluster headache and fewer for patients who have contraindications to vasoconstrictive drugs. METHODS: Olanzapine was given as an abortive agent to five patients with cluster headache in an open-label trial. THE INITIAL OLANZAPINE DOSE WAS 5 MG, AND THE DOSE WAS INCREASED TO 10 MG IF THERE WAS NO PAIN RELIEF. THE DOSAGE WAS DECREASED TO 2.5 MG IF THE 5-MG DOSE WAS EFFECTIVE BUT CAUSED ADVERSE EFFECTS. To be included in the study, each patient had to treat at least two attacks with either an effective dose or the highest tolerated dose. RESULTS: Five patients completed the investigation (four men, one woman; four with chronic cluster, one with episodic cluster). Olanzapine reduced cluster pain by at least 80% in four of five patients, and two patients became headache-free after taking the drug. Olanzapine typically alleviated pain within 20 minutes after oral dosing and treatment response was consistent across multiple treated attacks. The only adverse event was sleepiness. CONCLUSIONS: Olanzapine appears to be a good abortive agent for cluster headache. IT ALLEVIATES PAIN QUICKLY AND HAS A CONSISTENT RESPONSE ACROSS MULTIPLE TREATED ATTACKS. IT APPEARS TO WORK IN BOTH EPISODIC AND CHRONIC CLUSTER HEADACHE.

PMID 11576207 PubMed

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Olanzapine has a brand name of "Zyprexa" and is a antipsychotic. Don't be put off by this primary usage. Several of the drugs used to treat CH are cross over applications, that is, drugs approved by the FDA for one purpose which are found to be effective with unrelated conditions--BJ.
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Reply #6 - Oct 19th, 2009 at 4:34pm
 
exmed1 wrote on Oct 19th, 2009 at 6:11am:
in this condition, I'd try anything!


Well if you'd try anything, I wonder if you should consider psilocybin, or Rivea Corymbosa seeds?

I know that we can get the seeds legally here (and in some states, mushroom spores for growing) via mail order and with the seeds it's only if the law sees you ingesting it that you're caught doing something illegal. If you have something similar for laws there, maybe you could lock yourself in the bathroom whilst ingesting seeds and be arrest risk free.  Smiley

BTW, Bonkers just posted that his son has had 3 stunningly mild days following RC seeds. Could just be coincidence of course, but I sure hope not!!

Here's where the seeds are procured 'round these parts (and I know they ship some of their items at least to UK):
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CH according to Bejeeber:

Strictly relying on doctors for CH treatment is often a prescription that will keep you in a whole lot of PAIN. Doctors are WAY behind in many respects, and they are usually completely unaware of the benefits of high flow 100% O2.

There are lots of effective treatments documented at this site. Take matters into your own hands, learn as much as you can here and at clusterbusters.com, put it into practice, then tell this CH beast Jeebs said hello right before you bash him so hard with a swift uppercut knockout punch that his stupid horns go flinging right off.
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Reply #7 - Oct 20th, 2009 at 2:44pm
 
Thanks for advice, but it's a non starter for the UK.  The mushrooms are banned even from import as seeds now!
With a young family, the last thing I need is a visit from our Police forces and so I stick to legal meds!

Bob mentioned that 'God' had spoken in the name of Peter Goadsby.
To give the lighter side of being in CCH, a little story might bring a smile..........

I had been admitted to National Neuro in Queen Square, London under Prof. Goadsby for some Lidocaine via IV to see if my CCH responded.
Anyway, although the hospital is a very old style building with grand stairs and little corridors/tunnels, it has incredibly modern equipment and the best Neuro's in the UK.  Peter Goadsby is a man of two styles - to us patients he is warm, interesting, never patronising and never a man to give false hopes or to dismiss any worries we might have.  But watch him on a ward round with his staff and it's like 'WOW!,  he is the BOSS. 
I witnessed the Prof. come to my bed with a string of doctors, some of equal medical level, he turned and asked a question to one of these guys that apparently the guy should have had an answer for and when the guy fumbled, the Prof. tore him to shreds!  Prof. Goadsby does not tolerate fools or slackers.  On the other hand, one of the team didn't understand the finer details of the upper levels of Lidocaine therapy and the Prof took real time and care to explain in encouraging tones what the details were, until the other Doctor was much clearer. 
Not only is Prof Peter Goadsby a 'God' for us CH sufferers, but he is a man that once you meet him, you will always admire.

Anyway the funny part is that one of the dangerous side effects of IV Lidocaine is the risk of cardiac arrest!  So there I was on a very high dose Lidocaine IV and felt a loss of sensation in my legs - 'No problem, says I - I'm an ex medic and it's just a small Lidocaine reaction'.  So by now the numbness is in my arms and I'm thinking that I should call the nurse.
The ECG monitor suddenly flashed red and alarmed - big time!
A crash cart and crash team come flying in and surround my bed.  Defib is at the ready and puzzled faces look at me a s I yell "HEY, WHOA, I'M NOT DEAD!".
Turns out the machine is programmed to alarm below a certain beat rate and the nurse had dialled a 'crash' call - meanwhile I'm feeling like crap, but definitely still alive!
See, even the best equipment can turn an average day into a comedy of errors.
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Reply #8 - Oct 20th, 2009 at 4:08pm
 
Wonderful story! It's the Black Humor that I miss from my hospital days....
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Reply #9 - Oct 21st, 2009 at 3:41pm
 
Hey all,
How about the self inflicted foul ups?
Bob, this ain't fictional 'black humour' - the prat who's writing this actually did this yesterday!

Yesterday 20 October my wife took me to our major hospital (about 50 miles away) because my consultant wanted me to have my regular (about every 2 years) MRI with Gadolinium dye.
Great we had a letter with the appoinment and the regular scan is reassuring because the scan is always normal and therefore its still 'just' Cluster and nothing else.
So my wife drives me, I'm all ready under my outer clothes with shorts and T-shirt and we turn up in good time.
Radiographer clerks me in and we check the letter, fill in the safety form, get changed and go and sit in the waitng area.
20 minutes later the radographer came out and asked me to follow him through to - another quiet area where he very kindly told me the appoinment wasn't until 1.30pm on 27th  October 2009! - We're a week early!
I told you my memory was affected or did I forget to tell you that!?
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Reply #10 - Oct 21st, 2009 at 4:30pm
 
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Not only is Prof Peter Goadsby a 'God' for us CH sufferers, but he is a man that once you meet him, you will always admire.


A lot of us here HAVE met Goadsby.  At last years convention in Dallas.  I wouldn't call him a God...but he certainly is our guru.  We all fell in love with the man and how he cares about us.
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