Hi all,
My name is Andy. I'm 49, live in the UK and used to be in anaesthetics.
I suffered from Encephalitis in 2001 - on my daughters birthday. Not that I actually remember the birthday or anything else much for 3 months after that!
Once I

left hospital care, the only lingering problems were a 24/7 headache at about level 5 - 8 and terrible memory retention.
My Neurologist started me on standard migraine therapies and after about 6 months of agonising pain, decided that although the MRI was basically normal, there was obviously something going on and refferred me to the National Hospital for Neurology in London, UK.
It was quickly decided that I was suffering from Cluster and treatment started on Sumitriptan, or was it Propanolol, or was it Verapimil!
The actual truth is that after 8 years I have tried just about every medication but I'll tell you about plans later.
The worst thing is that over the years I've settled on a daily average pain score of 8 out of 10 - some days I don't even remember because my wife, who cares for me brilliantly, will watch me dissolve into 10 out of 10 for as long as 12 hours and then see the 'relief' as I go back to a 7 out of 10 and can at least function to a point.
Cluster battling is my life. In all these years I've never, not ever, had one minute without this terrible demon hacking away at my pain reserves. It is totally chronic and yes I've thought of suicide. My children and my wife are all I focus on to get through each 24 hour period. I don't say '24 hour day' becuase day and night are the same - just ones dark and the other is light - the pain has no clock to guide it!
I guess like most chronic CH sufferers, we deal with every day as a fresh challenge and somehow we do it.
I have been on 4600mg of Gabapentin per day for about 2 ears now - but the meds think that recent onset disphasia (loss of speech) may be due to the high doses and have 'weaned' me down to 2400mg daily - pains still the same though!
I've tried it all, from High flow O2, IV Lidocaine, Morphine, sumitriptan, Lithium, Topiramate, Prednisolone and so many more, it would read like the pharmacy journals!
My consultant has now been left with two options. We're going to try Methergycide and if that fails, I'm going on the list for deep brain stimulation surgery.
Has anyone else tried Methergycide?
I guess I'm here to say two main things.
1/ It's great to find like minded sufferers an to swap our feelings to support each other and
2/ NEVER GIVE UP! - we all hate every day and yet if you're like me I still cling to the love of being alive for my family and we'll all fight on for another day of hope and equal despair - but just don't let go. One day it'll all be better for all of us - I'm certain and I'll be there to cheer aslong with all of us.
Hi and thanks for listenig and if I can help anyone else deal with this terible evil, then drop me a post and share it - can't guarantee that I'm any use, but I promise I'll try.
Speak soon.