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Apr 17^th, 2010 at 7:16pm

It seems I made a lot of people stressed in my madness of suicide.
Did I think of those that I affected,”No”
Would you expect someone in that state to think of others, not really?
How many go through this without letting others know….
Just because I was able to send my last moments on this site” To be honest I don’t remember anyway.
Would you really know anyway if I just didn’t post anymore?
At the end of the day I’m just text to you.
We’ve never met and not likely too.
I’m just talking to a curser.

Please don’t judge like some?
Trying to get my head and life back on track.
Colin
Ps quite fancy the water reed coffin if it comes to it and Floyds wish you were here sound track.
Maybe I ought to think about that selection…

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Reply #1 - Apr 17^th, 2010 at 7:32pm

Ahhh, but you may have missed the point. The good folks here DO see more than text and black squiggles. THAT is why the reaction - not because there is/was no caring. Get that straight first and foremost!

Colin, if you were indeed on the brink that night - I for one am glad you are still here. I can promise you that I am not the only one.

People play games on the net and it can be hard to determine which is what and what is which ......

Be open, be real and you can be here.

Marc

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KJ CH.com Alumnus Offline Posts: 596 Indianapolis, IN Gender:	Re: Response Reply #2 - Apr 17^th, 2010 at 9:03pm So you think you can tell Heaven from Hell, blue skies from pain? rock on, Colin.
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Reply #3 - Apr 17^th, 2010 at 9:19pm

OK, based on the ~~three~~ four PM's, one email that I've gotten and this post, I am obviously out of the loop.

Pretty secret stuff. Is he CIA, IRS, IRA, BBC, BBB, BSBC, ASPCA?

This is one place that always called BS when it was. Now it seems to be politically correct which means that we have wonder who to is being honest.......

Guess I'm done ranting for now.

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Reply #4 - Apr 17^th, 2010 at 10:05pm

I'm just gonna step in here real quick and say a few things before this gets WAY out of control.

Having had contact with Colin's wife during what seemed to be a VERY difficult time for him (and his family), I don't think ANYONE has the right to send a PM, (or post), information that didn't come from the source...only speculation. You weren't there, you don't know the facts, so I believe that everyone deserves the benefit of the doubt. And for the record, it's not secret stuff, it's called being respectful to someone that was maybe going through a rough time...why is that so hard to do? It's not "politically correct" to air out someones laundry...

I find it disheartening that a person would actually judge or question someone that shows or tells signs of suicidal thoughts or actions. So until you're there, or in the situation, NO ONE has the right to judge or question what happened, or didn't.

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Marc Ex Member Gender:	Re: Response Reply #5 - Apr 17^th, 2010 at 10:19pm You quoted my words, so it obvious that you were pointing at me. I didn't make it public. I didn't say anything negative about Colin to his face, in PM's or behind his back. I didn't judge him - ask what I said publicly and in PM's Have a nice day.
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Reply #6 - Apr 17^th, 2010 at 10:38pm

Marc wrote on Apr 17^th, 2010 at 10:19pm:

You quoted my words, so it obvious that you were pointing at me.

I quoted your "politically correct" statement making a point about airing someones laundry. Maybe I should have said "just because I'm quoting your two words, this is not intended for you Marc"

I didn't make it public.

Didn't say you did

I didn't say anything negative about Colin to his face, in PM's or behind his back.

OK, didn't say you did

I didn't judge him - ask what I said publicly and in PM's

I didn't say you did judge him

Have a nice day.

I'm sorry you felt that my post was pointing fingers at you Marc, it was NOT my intention...more of a blanket/frustrated statement.

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Guiseppi CH.com Moderator CH.com Alumnus Offline San Diego to Florida 05-16-2011 Posts: 12063 SAN DIEGO, CALIFORNIA USA Gender:	Re: Response Reply #7 - Apr 17^th, 2010 at 11:00pm People here are more then lines and squiggles to me Colin, went through a dark place I guess, glad to see you back here. You take care of you-self, I for one would miss you. Joe
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QnHeartMM CH.com Sponsor Offline I AM a Phoenix! Posts: 1783 San Diego, CA Gender:	Re: Response Reply #8 - Apr 17^th, 2010 at 11:21pm Colin - glad you're ok and back posting with us. I missed your wit. Marc, don't stay away too long.
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Dallas Denny 62 CH.com Old Timer Offline Semper Fi !!!! Posts: 295 Island Bayou Mushroom Farm Gender:	Re: Response Reply #10 - Apr 18^th, 2010 at 10:30am I agree Bob, truly a shame! And I too hope you don't stay away too long Marc!! DD
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Reply #11 - Apr 18^th, 2010 at 2:43pm

Hey Colin, really glad to see you posting and hopefully your personal circumstances will take a turn for the better soon. Marc, I also think its shame that you’re leaving. It's a world wide support group and within that you have every type of religious and political beliefs us mad humans can muster up...! Yeah, we won't always agree but one place I see all of us in general agreement is the “Getting to know ya section"

I really hope to see you both posting again..

Lefty

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cavalier Ex Member	Re: Response Reply #12 - Apr 18^th, 2010 at 4:54pm Thanks Mrs D You know seems kinda funny 12 months ago, i went to work with a shirt and tie. Don't get out of my pygamas now adays Thanks from the well wishers.
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Iddy CH.com Alumnus Offline Smile Posts: 486 Toronto,Canada Gender:	Re: Response Reply #13 - Apr 18^th, 2010 at 5:17pm Glad you are back Colin. The best to you and those who love and care about you. Having lost my two brothers to suicide my choice would be "Wish you were Here" Iddy
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Reply #15 - Apr 18^th, 2010 at 7:18pm

Mrs Deej wrote on Apr 17^th, 2010 at 10:38pm:

Marc wrote on Apr 17^th, 2010 at 10:19pm:

You quoted my words, so it obvious that you were pointing at me.

I quoted your "politically correct" statement making a point about airing someones laundry. Maybe I should have said "just because I'm quoting your two words, this is not intended for you Marc"

I didn't make it public.

Didn't say you did

I didn't say anything negative about Colin to his face, in PM's or behind his back.

OK, didn't say you did

I didn't judge him - ask what I said publicly and in PM's

I didn't say you did judge him

Have a nice day.

I'm sorry you felt that my post was pointing fingers at you Marc, it was NOT my intention...more of a blanket/frustrated statement.

I hope Marc saw that it wasn't directed at him and returns soon.

Colin: I do think you have to realize that this place is not a usual message board. People do care and even newbies are cared about. I hope you will find out more as you move forward and not make it a practice to call out people in public.

Peace.

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You've overstayed your welcome since the day we met but it doesn't seem to matter to you. No medications are your master, nothing makes you fret, it's a helpless feeling having nothing I can do

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Reply #16 - Apr 18^th, 2010 at 9:59pm

No judging from me Cavalier.
Glad your still here, life and our minds take some strange turns at times. Then it turns back.
Its interesting how different things can seem when others start to tiptoe around the issues.
I have never been in your shoes but have known a lot of folks to wear similar brands over the years.
Joy fades, Hope never ends, wisdom pushes through and life continues on untill spring when the new blooms appear and a light begins to shine anew in our souls

Maybe you could advise Marc on the best pygamas to get.

Marc, dont really know you, but I and I'm sure many hundreds more sure appreciate the help and positive attitude you give to so many.

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Lefty CH.com Alumnus Offline Posts: 759 Gender:	Re: Response Reply #17 - Apr 19^th, 2010 at 5:20am I hope you don't try and nip to Tescos in your PJ's for some milk Colin, I've heard they have banned it now.. Lefty
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Charlie CH.com Alumnus Offline Happy to be here Posts: 18971 Jamestown, NY Gender:	Re: Response Reply #18 - Apr 19^th, 2010 at 12:05pm I'm glad Colin is around but I'm so far behind the curve that I have no idea WTF has taken place. Multimedia File Viewing and Clickable Links are available for Registered Members only!! You need to or I dare not say more. Charlie
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