Now I've written the title I don't even Know how to start this post.

Why me ? What did I do to deserve this ?
I bet every one has asked these Questions at some point or another, I know I did.

Now I can't answer the "why me " cos why dose anyone suffer from anything?

As for the "what did I do to deserve this" The answer is simply nothing, it's just a failing of part of our bodies .

God dose not inflict us with terrible ailments to punish us. He loves us ALL perfectly whether we believe in Him or not, but He can use our problems for His good purposes.

When I first started getting hit by CH I prayed that the doctor would find an answer , on my first visit he diagnosed CH which from what I've read here is nothing short of a miracle in it's self.

Then when he referred me to a neurologist the first available appointment was in 6 months , my wife, after seeing what I was going through , prayed about the appointment then switched on the computer and looked on the NHS website and got me a cancellation for the following week .

The people in our Church have been absolutely fantastic ,I mean I've been brought up in a christian home and we always went to church on a Sunday etc. I strayed a way in my late teens and have only gone back about 2 years or so ago- to a different church after my wife was "converted", these wonderful people really care about us .

And now I've found this diverse community here on this board full of people from all walks of life , all brought together by a common problem , all who care about each other passing on any thing that could help another.

This may seem like a strange thought but how blest are we !

So why not me over anyone else ?

My prayer now is that if I can help just one person suffering from CH to find their Way through the pain then this will all be worth it .

Ok enough of my prattling on for now , just to say I'm not preaching here ,just wanted to try and wright down where I'm at and to say THANK YOU all for the part that you have played and are still playing in this part of my life.

Praying for you all , and maybe a cure?      amen

Nigel

Nigel, that was very nice.  Thank you.

That was a beautiful post, Nigel.  Thank you.

With all of the pain and horrors CH can bring not only to the sufferer, but to those who know and love him or her, finding this place - this family, is truly a blessing.

Sandy

Thank you all for your wonderful comments , I didn't know how this post would be received cos I'm not good at expressing how I feel in writing ,or any other way come to that matter, it took me a couple of hours to write that short post and thank God for spell checks , but I can see that I had nothing to worry about .

Thanks again

Nigel

ps: only 3 spelling errors in this one ....that's a first for me 

May be it's because why not me sounds a lot less self centered than why me .
first time I heard some one say why not me over any one else was my father as he was dying of cancer it struck me as a profound thing to say then but I don't think I really understood it till now.

oh I've just noticed it's 3 am ! I should probably go get some sleep.

good night all , God bless

Nigel

Cannot tell you how many times I have asked why me and wondered how big of a prick I must have been in a past life to deserve such pain in this life.
Why not me I guess is a better way of looking at it and a bit more positive I guess but don’t think I will ever stop wondering why any of us should have to suffer like this.

Don't believe in God as we have been taught.  Does he really "forgive" everyone at the end, like Hitler, Stalin and other murderers?  Why does this "god" give children cancer that can't be cured and suffer terribly?  This "god" must be a sadist and I would rather deal with the "devil" whom he is STILL trying to get back to heaven.  Religions, in my opinion, are fairy tails.

Hay Tommy
God really dose forgive and already has forgiven all people ever . but forgiveness is a two way thing , we have to be willing to ask for it and repent of our sins.
All our iniquities were nailed into Jesus on the cross years ago. God's part in this is done and now it is our turn.
And all we have to do is believe and ask.

And as I mentioned before God dose not inflict things on us , that is not what love dose, but He will use every situation to achieve his good purposes.
He has no agenda with us , no expectations, He all ready knows every thing about us and every thing that is going to happen and every choice we're going to make.
If we believe and trust in Him He will help us through every situation we find our selves in .

erm.. I'm not a theologist here but i am absolutely convinced that God is real and He dose Love us and listen to us, from first hand experience.

any way Ill leave you to draw your own conclusions.
the last thing I want to do is shove religion down any ones throats.

all the best Nigel

....and seeds in watermelons.

Good post Nigel.

Mosquitoes are necessary to pollenate grass.

ooo that will look nice , but at least you could sell your lawn mower, which will also help if it is a petrol one, cos skeeters are attracted to the smell of petrol 

I should have picked up on that being as that is the reason my GP got a blank look when he asked me if my headaches came with watery eyes and a runny nose , and I was like  hay fever sufferer here it's abit of a job to tell . btw sneezing is a right pain when you are getting hit, makes you feel like that bloke from scanners just before his head exploded 

Nigel

I think it's just a self defence system although it dose seem counterproductive when they use it on us....SPLAT !

edited to add:-

I guess that they have there place in creation just like every thing else and we simply don't understand it yet .  May be when science has come up with a way to eradicate them from our planet without killing anything else well find out what it was and wish we still had them. may be we will never know ,I guess that's where faith comes in .

Nigel