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I was around 18 years of age when I started getting Migraine Headaches; it was later diagnosed as a Cluster Headache. My story is based on my experience as I remember it. My story may sound a little off keel, but when you’re hit with this type of pain you’ll do anything to get rid of it. My first headache woke me up out of a deep sleep, I was dreaming I was falling and woke up with immense pain over my left eye. My father was a pharmacist, now retired. He had sent me to every professional under the sun; finally I went to an ENT, Ear, Nose and Throat Doctor. He stated I have a condition known as Cluster Headaches. He told me there was no cure and that I could lessen the attacks by staying away from certain triggers like smoking, caffeine, chocolate and sunlight. So I thought to myself, who does this guy think he is? No cure, please; he can’t place that type of burden on me. I then continued to seek alternative healing methods such as Chiropractors, Acupuncture and even a guy who put some kind of ointment on my head and burnt me with a hot iron. If you’ve suffered these types of headaches you learn something about yourself, well at least I did, and displaced pain was a relief. Seriously, I started burning my head with a hot iron and towel so it wouldn’t fry my skin; this is not a recommendation, but for me, it gave me temporary relief. I snorted Cayenne Pepper, once again not a recommendation. The headaches only came back stronger. I looked into the mirror in my car while I was driving home one day and saw a thick ass wrinkle on my forehead, I frick'n broke the mirror off, yes the beast had me good. I later found out that some individuals call this type of headache; suicide headaches, if you’re in its grasps you probably know what I mean. I went a little overboard missing classes and became a self involved sufferer, you realize that no one understands the pain you’re in. So I went a little psycho for lack of a better word. I really thought the rest of my life was only going to be about pain. It's important to understand that I suffered in pain for almost ten years, not only physical, but I suspect some emotional as well. If you’re a sufferer, you know what I mean. I was taking a self defense class; it was from a private party. It was from a couple, who had a pretty wild belief system, but the Kung Fu was good, and I owe them the world. They were a husband and wife team, he taught me and my friends, she made us dinner and meditated a lot. She had me listed to this tape where you listen to some soothing music and think of your hand and forehead at the same time. I found it a little weird, just my opinion. However, when you’re in pain, you’ll try anything. I decided perhaps I should try this, heck I tried everything else. I decided to keep meditating / thinking of my hand. I did this everyday for weeks, maybe months. I found by concentrating on my hand I could feel the blood flow into my hand, I later found out its called bio feedback. I remember thinking, this is cool, after a while I could concentrate on all my figures, and then one at a time. I truly felt like some divine intervention had stepped in. Please understand I was not religious, at many times I had some choice words for my creator, and I can’t share it here. So I could control my blood circulation, and then realized by controlling my breathing I could quicken the flow of my blood. Wow, I really felt like I was accomplishing something. I really hit my wits end. So here I am lying in bed defeated, thinking of my hand which was by my head. I felt what can only be explained as a small current of electricity or energy; I’m not sure what it was. I thought to myself, aha, I got something. So once I realized I could control this energy, I focused on my pain and pushed and pulled through it. The next day I was on my way to work and felt a sensation of blood flowing down the side of my nose under my left eye, almost like a popping sensation. The headaches have been gone ever since. I later went a little over board with the energy manipulation, but that’s another part of my life. I’m not a doctor and this is not a recommendation and if you’re litigious, this is for entertainment purposes only. This is my personal story, my name is Michael, and it’s been a bit over 20+ year’s pain free. Don't worry, it's my last post here... God bless
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