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Another day, another bruise!
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Hello,
My name is Guy. I live in the south of England, and I've been a chronic sufferer now for 5 years. I haven't had one 'day off' for all that time and it's now really testing me. I belong to OUCH.UK who are wonderful, and a couple of other smaller sites. I thought I'd give this site a go as it looks very well maintained and presented. I have my attacks in the early hours, not long to go infact. I can never sleep before them, and have never been able to. I sit and things happen as they would if I was sound asleep. I've tried dozens of drugs over the years but nothing really seems to help. I've even been fortunate enough to have had the ONSI op, but even that hasn't made a huge difference. I was told however, that it can take time to function properly. But it's been just over 12 months since the op, how long do I have to wait. I really am at my wits end and I'm struggling to keep my head together. I've done so well over the years, always try and smile and get on with things, but now I'm finding it harder and harder to deal with. The pain just gets worse, I've constantly got a bruised forehead and would do anything just to sleep well for several hours at once. I have had attacks during the day as well, but these are not always regular. I take my Imigran injections, all my meds, oxygen and of course use my remote for my internal system. You'd think with all that something would give just to make life a little easier. I have no life at all, I can't work and don't socialize. Believe me, if I could I would. I don't receive any benefits because the system here is a joke. It's not recognized! As soon as you mention the word 'headache', people seem to think you get a little bit of pain like a hangover or something. I always use the medical terms (the long words) that seems to help. I don't drink or smoke and eat healthly. There is nothing more I can do to try and slow things down or reduce the pain but nothing is working. I think the main reason I've posted this on the forum is really to try one last attemp and see if anybody out there has any ideas as to what I can do, without doing the almost inevitable. I've lost three friends during my time as a sufferer who were also sufferers and I've seen first hand what it does to their families etc... but sometimes I also think just how lucky (you know what I mean) they are because they are not suffering every single day non stop, year after year. I have some wonderful people helping me in terms of neurosurgeons etc.. but sometimes it's just not enough. I'm coming up to my 6th year as a chronic sufferer, that's over 2,000 days. 2,000 days without a break. How am I meant to go on? I'm sorry my first post here is so negative, but I just get see any relief ahead and I'm scared as to what I might do. I've never felt this depressed before, even after all these years, but now it's really getting to me. If anybody here has any suggestions I'd be so grateful. And if anybody from the UK reads this, then perhaps we could meet up if you're near the south coast? Thank you for letting me air my problems, and lets hope that one day we all get better.
Regards Guy.
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