Hello new friends.
I've been on the site a couple times over the years, but given my recent bouts I thought it would be best to jump in. Here's my story:
I'm a 33 year-old male living in California, and I have been coping with CHs since 2008. I first experienced them about two weeks after I had lasik eye surgery. I first thought these horrible headaches were a problem with the procedure. I thought they were migraines, and at one point was consuming mass amounts of caffeine to cope (I later realized that my belief of caffeine's effect was based on a coincidence of a CH simply ending).
Eventually I met with my doctor, who believed my ailment to be CH syndrome. She prescribed verapamil and Imitrex spray for controlling the attacks. Within a week, the verapamil seemed to do the trick (Imitrex was wonderful when needed), and kept them at bay for over three years. I began with 240mg per day, then tapered to 120mg after about a month. Over the next couple years, I had two lapses of 1 - 2 headaches, but only when I went off of my routine and missed my verapamil doses. I am in full awareness that I am more fortunate than many for such good results, and for that I am thankful.
Skip ahead to present. About a month ago I was assigned to work graveyard for the first time in my life. The sleep adjustment took a bit (to be expected), but it certainly caused a disruption in my internal clock - and my verapamil routine! I have since paid the price. I have had many lapses since then and have seen no sign of relief, as the verapamil isn't doing much (despite upping back to 240mg), and my fresh batch of imitation Imitrex doesn't seem to help anymore. Can it be that the brand name is that much more effective?
I am currently looking for a way to break this current cycle and I am hopeful that the verapamil will keep them at bay for a while longer once I do. I must believe that to be possible! I have an appointment with a doctor today, so I am curious what they will say. I will also seek a referral to a neurologist.
I wish I knew what triggered my latest cycle, whether the disruption of verapamil, the new sleep schedule, both, or perhaps a coincidence and it was simply "my time."
I thought I would also share a couple other thoughts to which people may be familiar.
At first, I was hesitant to really get into this site. Simply put, reading about CH validates their existence, and sometimes ignorance is bliss.

I genuinely thought that I had beaten this beast, and that a simple pill a day will keep them away - forever. I am a little disheartened to read that every cycle is different, and that I may be searching for new treatments with other cycles for a long, long time.

I also believed that I was only biding my time, and that they would go away on their own in several years. Anything is possible, I suppose, but now that seems to be a pipe dream.
In this time in my life, I find it very difficult to stay positive. I know that may come across as crass to others who suffer much more than I do, and for that I apologize. But even you must know that a single experience is one too many. I feel like they control me -- at least right now. I fear sleep, and find that the anxiety I endure is physically and emotionally draining. I have a 4 month-old son, and I pray that he will not inherit this pain.
So there you have it. I will no longer live in denial and will do my best to tackle this disease. I thank everyone for what they have shared to this point. I will learn to cope and look forward to all of our helpful interactions in the future.