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My CH is getting weaker, and I'm getting happy!!!
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Has anyone here been a long-term cyclic dancer with the beast, and noticed fading cycles, that eventually led to total remission? I read somewhere about 8-9 years ago that, statistically, once you get CH, you're stuck with it for at least 20 years, but more likely for life.
I've had relatively predictable, regular cycles since 1991 (maybe earlier...didn't want to keep of journal of this hell on earth, so not sure) and since around 2006 I have noticed erratic, irregular CH, with shorter duration of the cycles, shorter CH, weaker and sometimes non-existent back-ground pain, and longer remissions of 12-24 months. I'm curious if anyone else has experienced something similar that eventually ended their CH altogether. I do understand that remissions can last for several years or more before a cluster starts again, but I was once a 2-3 cluster/year sufferer, 3-4 month cycles, 3 CH/day, usually lasting about 4 hours, 6-7 days/week. Remissions would rarely be over 6 months, usually 3-4 months or less. My last cycle started in August, lasting 3 weeks, if I recall...this one started in November (2 weeks ago)...15 months apart, go figure.
My current cycle has been as in recent years: unorganized, weak intensity, no back-ground. Back in the bad ol' days, they would be full-blown and timex-accurate within less than a week. Now, 3 days in a row, 3 CH/day, but timing varied somewhat, as did CH length/intensity, from 30-60 minutes. I did get beat-up pretty badly about 24hrs back for an hour or so, then suddenly, no pain...but the worst pain in years (easily Kip 10). Then today: nothing all day today until 6:00 pm tonight. This one lasted 2 hours...1st hour was Kip 8-9, then the last hour Kip 5-6 and morphed a lot...felt like ocean waves crashing from front to back at about 5-second intervals, with an occasional cork-screw wiggle now and then, and a slew of other short, less noticeable sensations...not super-intense, but it really played with me a lot while I tried to cope (just the beast F'n w/me, right?). It ever so slowly faded to a back-ground (what I fear the most, as I feel this cycle likely will be with me for a while, but, I have been wrong before). Oh, and all these years, pain has been one-sided...never changed.
I've been non-RX all the way to this point in time...I have a high-tolerance for pain, but it does wear me down...mostly just exhaustion. I was hoping that my changes in CH may be an indication that I'm on the downhill side of this...starting to think otherwise, and my hope is fading. Last night's brutal reminder of just how bad this really gets was about all I could handle for one day....tougher to play well when you haven't practiced the game lately, I guess.
Anyway, knowing that for every cluster-head, cycles and remissions can differ widely, as well as what works for aborting, relieving/reducing pain, etc, I'm really curious if there is hope for anyone who has experienced CH like I have, for so long...will/can it ever end after more than 20 years? Again, just because 2 or 3 say they've been PF for 10 years doesn't mean I will be, but any hope or chance at all is better than none.
Thanks! Looking forward to hear from you!
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