Posted by Beth on July 02, 1998 at 13:06:45:
In Reply to: Cluster Update posted by Laurence on July 01, 1998 at 09:31:41:
This set me back a bit as I read your description. In my last hospitalization I had a nightmare that there was an object laying next to me. As I turned to look at it the face was covered with a thin veil intricately woven. The color of the veil was a deep maroon almost like the clor of dried blood. In this dream I reached to uncover the object and as I did the object was one of a doll fashioned to me like me with needles and hooks inserted in to the left side of the face and head. But I wasn't afraid of the doll. I tried to put the veil back on it but it slid away. I tried to take out the needles and hooks but they picked my fingers and then I felt pain in my own face. As I started to come to a state of awakedness I felt the veil was on my face. Mind you this all very vivid to me in color. I didn't want to wake up but the pain wouldn't stop and the veil came off. I bolted upright and swore to God the veil fell before me on the bed. I was having a CH in full blown proportions. I reached for the 02 mask and buzzed the nurse. I have never been able to shake that dream. I wrote about it as in a poem. I also shared it with the nurse at the time. I'm sure she thought I was nuts. They had given me a pill of ambian that knocked me out some and that was when the dream occured. My doll friend and I are now partners during a CH attack. I am sure someone can really put some symbology into this!! Or likely want to lock me up a bloody long while.... I found the other statements startling and interesting about vodoo dolls. I have never shared this with anyone else. Thank you for letting me know I am not the only vodoo women out there...