Posted by David Chalfant (208.30.14.169) on June 30, 1999 at 14:37:38:
In Reply to: Re: Less Than posted by glenn on June 30, 1999 at 09:29:13:
Carl, I understand your feelings of hopelessness, dejection, and feelings of unwortheness. I beat myself up pretty bad when I fail or make mistakes
I always amplify them when I am going through clusters. You sound very depressed and your posting frightened me. I deal with clinical depression and an anxiety disorder. I do not think I am responsible for these Ch's or how they affect my life. Nor do I think my depression and anxiety is entirely social related. I take antidepressants and clonazepam ( a type of benzodiazepen) I cannot remember if you take an antidepressant for CH treatment nor do I remember if you tried Calcium Channel Blockers (i.e Verapamil SR.) I take effexor XR- an antidepressant- and it has lifted my mood and cut down the frequency of CH's.
Don't give up; the miracle could be just around the corner. I really don't know you but I do know your pain and its consequences on family an friends. We NEED you on this site I will pray for you and I hope you pray for yourself family and friends. I use the Serenity Prayer: God, Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.To get out of self pity, I use the St. Francis Prayer:
God,make me a channel of thy peace-that where there is hatred, I may bring love-that where there is discord,I may bring harmony-that where there is wrong, I may bring the spirit of forgiveness-that where is error, I may bring truth-that where is doubt, I may bring faith-that where there is despair, I may bring hope-that where there are shadows, I may bring light-that where there is sadness, I may bring joy. God,grant thati may seek rather than to comfort-to understand, than to be understood-to love than to be loved.For it is by self-forgetting that one finds. It is by forgiving that one is forgiven. It is by dying that one awakens to the Eternal Life
Please hang in there. you are needed more than you realize
Love and Faith, David Chalfant