Posted by Amanda Best (216.164.7.103) on July 20, 1999 at 23:44:58:
I have been ill now for what seems like an eternity. In the beginning, I had no choice. The frequency and intensity of the attacks made it impossible for me to venture out. Thank god I live in NYC where I have the benefit of delivery for everything and countless doormen for everything else.
I organized and redecorated my apartment between headaches. Took care of all the stuff I needed too and hadn’tdone before. The television and the computer have now become my best friends.
Now, I find that my headaches are lessening in their severity and it is probably possible for me to leave the house. As a matter of fact I NEED to leave the house. Each day I plan to get out at least for a few minutes and each night I find myself saying “maybe tomorrow.”
I fear that I am sinking in to a very deep depression. What can I do to get out? I feel like I am an old woman and I am only 29 years old! I use to travel the world and go to countless parties and social events! Now I can’t even leave my goddamn apartment!
Sorry, I’m venting. I will try again to get out tomorrow. I’d like to feel the sun.
Amanda