Posted by Carl D (208.4.16.237) on August 06, 1999 at 19:42:00:
In Reply to: sick of it all posted by ted3 NOT tedski on August 06, 1999 at 18:57:29:
I had asked before if anyone else had gotten SSI because of clusters, and got quite a few responses. Now it seems as though those people have disappeared. As for the "clique", I don't know about that, but there are some people who have become close as a result of this message board. There's no need to be bitter over it. Thats the way life is. Some people get close to you, others keep you at arms length. I think maybe I know how you feel, but what can you do? Some here are sufferers, some are supporters. Some are fortunate enough to meet another CH. Some are left to be alone. Some have to deal with the hardcore physical pain AND the severe emotional pain of having no one to understand. I understand.
I am a freak. I am the black sheep of the black sheep. Some have to deal with ignorance. Some have to deal with abuse. Some want to run. I just want an end to this madness. I'm sorry Ted. I can't say I know how you feel, as everyone feels things differently. Some people let things roll off of them, others feel too intensly. I'm an artist/poet/musician. I dont just hear music-I feel it. In that same respect, I am way too intense in my feelings sometimes. I'm not sure if you can relate. I have been going thru major sleep deprivation and pain, sometimes just wishing I had someone to hold onto. Instead, I hold fading hope in empty arms.
Alone,Tired,Confused,Stressed,Depressed,Hurting,
Carl D