Posted by Bernadette (205.188.200.48) on August 18, 1999 at 03:36:06:
Hello family, it has been quite some time since I have really posted. I have been extremely sick but I have looked on the board to see that there has been a lot of excitement going on around this board and I need to put my two cents in. First off Elaine, what happened to you is perfectly normal under your conditions. I am very glad that you didn't succeed in your attempt but when you are feeling the way you are the only normal thought would be to hurt yourself but always remember that the price you will pay for killing yourself is much worse than what you could ever think of.....HELL is much worse than cancer or CH so please remember Gods love for you. I know that you will get through this as long as your daughter stays by your side and we on this board give you all the support and love that you need.
Now I have also been reading about this whole Clique thing, please can't be all get alone. I personally have been posting since April 1998 and it has taken me a whole year before I found people whom I can chat with on a regular basis. I remember the old days of being on the board and it was nothing compared to what we have now but it takes time to develop relationships. Some relationships have started a long time ago and some are new this doesn't mean that there are cliques within the CH board. I know for a fact that people on this board care for me and I don't even get to chat with them on a regular basis but does this mean that one cares more for me than to other..NO. it just means that we all have seperate lives but I know we all care.
Now about Carl D. DJ put this board together for all CH suffers to get together to vent, due to the fact that we had no where to go. If Carl wants to vent and whine (not my words) then heck let him do so as well as anyone else. This is what this message board is all about. We are the only people in the world who understand each other and if we can't express our feelings, bad or good then what in the heck is this board for. We don't want to run people out of here because we all know how hard it gets and we can say anything from time to time. Heck I have wanted for weeks to get on this board and say HEY I"M GOING TO KILL MYSELF but I then remember what my eternity will be like if I did that and Hell is not a place where I want to spend my eternity but not everyone can believe in the Lord as I do (however it would be nice :). In a world that has so much confussion and so much pain I think we are all directing it in the wrong directions. On this board we should all be understanding to everyone and no one should blast another human being without just cause and being depressed is not just cause. Please can't we all just get along here and remember that we all understand the pain, so let's try to help.
When we all lay down tonight or wake up in the morning thinking that this will be the worse day of our lives due to the pain I want you to all sit back and say I don't really have it that bad. Then I want you to say a prayer to all the families in Turkey that lost their families to the earthquake and know that the pain that we are feeling will never amount to the pain that they feel in their hearts at that very moment and then I want you to be thankful for the life that the Lord has allowed you to have for this day.
I truly thank God for this site. I thank God for this site because have had the opportunity to meet new people who have helped me in my dealings with CH and other problems and I don't know where I would have been. I know that I have the Lord on my side but it always helps to have an ear to actually listen to you. Be kind to one another and God Bless.
Love,
Bernie