Posted by Cujo (209.214.201.181) on December 16, 1999 at 09:47:58:
Every episode seems to be getting worse. Yesterday i lay in bed and moaned and cried. I tried taking a HOT shower , It just wouldnt subside. I tried an Icepack, no relief at all. I banged my head with the fist of my hand in a rythmic manner. It actually almost felt good , but it didnt go away. 25 years is way too long to suffer for a fucking headache. Yes Imitrex works for me , But i just cannot take them everyday...they are just too hard on my system. I am losing my patience, i am waking up with a 10 (Kip) everyday. I have the shadow now...I work 3rd shift but i delay going to bed because i know its no use cause this "bastard" is gonna wake me up again. I'm thinking suicidal thoughts , very unlike me!! I thought about going to buy a .45 magnum......For once i might actually win, so when the "Bastard" gets on me again , i will fill the barrel with a hollowpoint bullet and blast that Son of a Bitch to smithereens. In a perverse way i actually like the thought of it. Today the scales are in my favor to LIVE.....Tomorrow....Who the fuck knows, I am just so tired of it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Later all , Cujo