Posted by Susan (184.108.40.206) on February 11, 2000 at 12:42:25:
In Reply to: Weekend Discussions begins! posted by Mrs Holloman on February 11, 2000 at 07:27:23:
I started doing narcotics (all kinds) at age 16, my clusters began shortly after.
I continued to 'party' til I got preggers with Tony.
After going thru natural childbirth I thought, "What is the big deal? I have headaches worse than this!"
I went back to my partying.
The pain in the right side of my head continued.
I went thru so many docs and their 'miracle cures'.
Yeah right! I took their drugs and got buzzed.
They did nothing for the pain.
Eventually I would overdose, trying to force the meds to work I guess.
I still believed with each new doc and med that 'this was it'.
I wanted so badly to rid myself of the pain I would try anything.
My 'recreational' drugs use never stopped.
I got to the point where I didn't want to take a chance on the docs anymore and just did 'my own thing'.
Then I thought that maybe I had a tolerance built up 'cause of my partying.
So I stopped and gave a neuro a shot.
Well I ended up in the hospital from an overdose of Tylenol 3 and whatever other useless stuff he gave me.
I went thru 2 attacks while in the waiting room.
It took them awhile to reach my doc to say it was OK for them to treat me.
They gave me a shot of morphine and I went nite nite for 12 hrs.
I woke up with a fruckin' attack!!
I said, "that's it".
It didn't matter what drug I took the clusters still were a big part of my life.
During natural childbirth 13 yrs after my first born, I was talking during my contractions.
They were amazed.
I told them it was nothing compared to my cluster pain.
They had no idea what I was talking about.
I don't think there is any harm in having this high tolerance pain level which I have gained through the years.
It makes me stronger.
Sorry it took awhile to get to my point.
Sometimes detailed descriptions are needed to make one.
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