Posted by Carl D (208.4.16.231) on February 27, 2000 at 13:09:22:
Yo - My peeps,
I missed you guys soooooo much. I was starting to feel like a heroin addict with only diet crack to feed my habit. Tried the library 'puters, and would have had better luck hooking a typewriter and telephone to a t.v. set. So how is everyone? Elaine - happy "after"birthday. Sorry I have been offline - but due to circumstances beyond my control...
I got an extension from the judge on my SSI case to try and get the rest of my medical records from Michigan. So far the only idiots who seem to refuse to give up the ghost is the good 'ole University of Michigan hospital. They 'claim' to have sent them out on the 18th, But I am a fart smeller (oops! Smart feller) and it doesn't take a mathematical genius to figure out they should have arrived way before now. So I will write them every other day and call at every given opportunity until they give up. I am sick of all of the stinkin red tape that surrounds my life. Would like to rip it off, wad it up, and shove straight up the systems...
So, what have I been doing with my times? Well, I read 3 novels in two weeks, wrote fifteen new songs, had probably seven hundred hardcore attacks (and five million thoughts of S), lost ten more pounds, chewed every nail completely off, nearly broke my hand punching the floor, and....the best thing.... I have delved into "SNAPPED" with everything I have as a writer. For those who don't know, I am writing a novel about a man who has his life destroyed by CH. I am pleased to announce that I have completed chapter one, and I am quite happy with it (This time.) I have been studying some writers guides to try and help with diction and grammer, and also the tone. So far so good. I do believe that trying to finish by the convention will be impossible, if I want to do this right. But I do hope to bring a "Teaser" with me to tempt you all to buy the book upon it's release. Right now I have no idea what I am gonna do about getting it published or printed, but I'll bite that apple when it's ripe.
Other than that, I have been going through some hardcore depression. Alot more than usual. Though I never thought it could be possible, my attacks are getting stronger too. Yesterday and this morning have been especially brutal. Right now I am shadowing on the right, and my temple feels like someone has shot it with a paintball, got that nice bit of pressure up there. If I wasn't writing this book, or had no other creative outlet to release my frustrations of dealing with this unsurpassed pain, I would not be here right now. I am impressed with myself that I have stuck it out this long. Its been hard, though.
Oh well, I gotta go for now. Drummer, expect the goods from me in the next day or two (I just got my email.)
Peace,
Carl D