Posted by Tracy - Surrey, England (195.147.228.224) on March 04, 2000 at 17:46:45:
In Reply to: Tracy, I had the same problem......... posted by Peter on March 02, 2000 at 17:09:18:
I was just wondering.
I sometimes feel that when the pain gets really bad I almost become transparent. Like I don't really exist.
It's amazing how pain makes your mind work.
My Gp doesn't help. I've stopped going to him as he made me feel like it wasn't happening. The pain wasn't as bad as I was saying. That if I just ignored it, got rid of the stress in my life and lost a few pounds then I'd be right as rain.
The fact that I get them stressed or not, ignoring it does *not* make it go away, and I've lost 3 stone since my daughter was born (although I've got a stone to go till I get back to my pre-pregnancy weight), *AND* I was getting them *before* I got pregnant doesn't seem to count for anything.
I sometimes wonder what to do. The pain's bad tonight. Each day's worse than the one before, and I know tomorrow's going to be worse than today. The last bout lasted 2.5 months and by the peak I was seriously considering cutting my head off, I just pray that it doesn't last that long this time or at least the pain isn't as bad.
But hey, I'm preaching to the converted right? Anyway, why am I bleating? I bet there's people out there much worse off than me with these things.
I don't have access to any serious painkillers though. Before you ask, I don't know how I cope I just do. I have a 2 year old daughter, 2 dogs, 2cats, my own business (I run it from home), a husband and a home to deal with daily. I can't leave it all up to him. like evryone out there with families and commitments and CH. You have to carry on because you have responsibilites right?
The buck stops with us.
Best wishes
Tracy