Posted by Kenn (152.163.213.196) on April 29, 2000 at 07:59:22:
In Reply to: Words posted by August on April 29, 2000 at 03:40:33:
August has said a mouthful.
Carl and about a thousand others of us have flirted with the idea of SUICIDE countless times.
You are right -- The subject is taboo to those who are either superstitious or in denial about life's realities.
People DO kill themselves. Clusterheads DO kill themselves. It has happened many times and it will happen again.
I've tried it myself and might again.
That's why I have been pushing this in front of members of this board...There are some among us who maybe need more help than we can give!
Carl is an example of one who has been repeatedly crying for help.
It's obvious that despite all of the help and attention he has recieved from Elaine and so many others, he can't cope with this thing. And he certainly can't do it without the people on this board.
Or...can he?
Maybe we are missing something.
But, Carl...I know I joke a lot, but I'm not kidding when I said that I will haunt you if you don't push past this morass and climb out of it. I know how to haunt, believe me. This is getting to not be very funny.
Remember me telling you about me living on the streets, struggling to walk with a cane and in constant pain, no meds, no insurance, no friends or family to help, not a dime in my pocket, complete failure, no future...no hope? Even that all-out suicide I attempted was foiled by a stupid little oversight. I was so mad I could have shot myself.
At this moment -- as I write this -- I'm trying to get enough of a coherent mind about me (coherency?) to finish these thoughts before this attack overcomes me and I have to hit the hot shower.
I have not said what I REALLY want to say.
...Yet.