Posted by August (206.103.35.91) on April 29, 2000 at 14:10:15:
I brought up the subject of suicide early this morning because at times it does seem like a viable solution.
It's a permanent solution. I try to believe in an after-life. In re-incarnation. I think it's possible. I believe more in purpose of life.
Pain pisses me off. Being diganosed with a brain tumor really pisses me off. The thought of not having life makes me extremely pissed off. Yeah-it's a given we are in extreme pain a lot of the time. Day in day out.
There are times that we aren't in pain. That is where this gift of life comes in. Paco has mentioned his artistic grand-daughter, Drummer his beautiful little girls, Elaine her great kids, Carl his nephew. All of us I truly hope can see that there is great beauty in life. Great joy. I think that hell is a state of mind. I think heaven is a state of mind too. But if we are in hell now, then search for that heaven because it's out there. If you can't find it then ask someone to help you find it.
Ok I'm done. I'm going back to bed to dream of heaven.