Posted by Carl D (208.4.19.21) on May 06, 2000 at 17:26:39:
In Reply to: Me and... posted by DJ on May 06, 2000 at 01:48:29:
I was just thinking to myself, with the way the air feels right now outside - this used to be the greatest time of year! Summer was just breaking, and there were parties everywhere. I used to love playing outdoor gigs at this time of year! I had friends galore beatin down the door to see how I was gonna spend my Saturday; was I playing out that night? Going out with my girlfriend? Another party? A night out on the landing in St Louis? Car hopping and bar hopping? Going to a show? Maybe a rave? Maybe boating till 5:00am? Skating with the bopsy girls? Toga's in U city?
Now, I am sitting here, by myself - nowhere to go and nothing to do; realizing what my head feels like without pain-meds. Shadowing, waiting for the next attack. No one calls or comes by, can't really go anywhere or do anything. Life has become a drag. I would just stay in bed, but I can't even do that - for that just invites the beast to play with me. I know what it feels like to be alone with just the pain that no one can fathom or understand.
It's amazing how much things can change in two years.
Peace,
Carl D