Posted by Riccardo (195.103.80.225) on May 08, 2000 at 02:06:16:
In Reply to: A quick poll posted by Ted on May 07, 2000 at 22:44:30:
As some of you knows, I got divorced 20 years ago. (I already have had clusters).
My last wife made for me a lot of sweet things, robbed in my store, a lot of... amusements with a lot of other men, a lot of lies.
In October 1980 I was in the 2nd month of Clusters and in the 10th month of these 'lovely' things.
Oh, and I have not any children from her! (Thanking God!)
I pick up a rope and gone in the cellar. Prepared the rope in the usual manner (I think someone of you know how) and.... I heard a child voice out that said "Daddy, daddy, don't leave me this evening!" T'was the son of one of my neighbors: his father have had the habit of drink too much in those times....
And then I heard the dad that leave home.
Don't know why, I throw the rope, I exit the cellar, and spent the entire evening with that child.
I have had the exact 'vision' that I will have had a child, and I cannot do this thing.
No religion, no clairvoiance, no touch of God..... but only the voice of a child.
I started to give music lessons to that child, and now that child now play guitars and keyboards much better than me! I feel him as a second son.
Believe or not, I never thought to suicide after that year!
Ciao and PFNAD