Posted by August (184.108.40.206) on May 20, 2000 at 00:38:48:
In Reply to: Just need a shoulder to cry on posted by Becca on May 19, 2000 at 22:59:21:
Becca-I will try to help you. I am chronic. I have been since age 25, now I'm 31. I deal with attacks everyday, except for the very rare free day that comes on an average of 3 days out of the month. No meds work for me. Only 02 for my little ones. Right now I am in the part of the month where I get 8's every three hours at 2 and a half hour bouts. In a few days I will be entering the peak of my battle. That is where I'm hit with 10's every 3 hours at 3 and a half hour bouts for four days.
You don't get used to it. You do learn to keep going. You learn to grasp every hour of freedom from pain as if it's GOLD. During those golden hours don't think of the pain to come. Try not to fear the next attack. I know this is hard to do. Very hard. During those golden hours enjoy life to the fullest as best you can. Then when the pain comes think of it as the return to war. You are a warrior. Be proud of that. You are strong. You endure what the average person would crumble and give in to. Fight and fight hard! Fight against depression. Fight against it taking over your life. It is your life, not the "Demon's" The demon is just a visitor that you have to put up with. The demon will never win if you don't let it.
I don't know if any of this will help. This is the only way I know how to keep going. Feel free to e-mail me whenever you need someone to listen to you. You can cry on my shoulder anytime.
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