Posted by August(Marie) (184.108.40.206) on August 28, 2000 at 08:09:36:
I don't know how to say goodbye. I have to. I also don't know how to tell everyone in this one post how I care about all of you. I hate the pain your in. I wish more than anything I could take it from you. Maybe you could call this a cluster confession. I'm not strong. In fact someone heard me on the phone yesterday practically crying with a 7. I'm a high school drop out who came close to getting her doctorate. Who would have guessed by my language. I've never been able to hold down a job for more than a year straight. I've never been married. I've never had kids. I'm selfish that way. I divorced my family when I was 15, and lived on the streets for two years. I have a cat, I love to read, and write, and draw. I like to debate social issues. I love to hike where I used to live in Montana, that is burning down. My sister died 6 months ago. It was almost 6 months ago i met the only person I've loved besides my sister. I ripped his heart out and walked away. That is the sum total of my life.
Sorry to take up the space. Another stupid post as they say.
Everyday I could I came here to see how my family was doing. I do think of you all as my family. My own family never had a clue. They thought the monster in the closet was my imagination. It wasn't, it was just in my head.
I'm sorry, very sorry to those I've hurt.
Ok I'm done.
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