Posted by Geo (206.173.17.31) on September 13, 2000 at 23:48:10:
about where remission starts,and where episodic clusters begin. I hate to say it, but I just don't trust my own brain! It seems as though I've gone into remission and have been for quite a while, on and off. This is the third since early August- No screamers, slight shadows here and there, or something that seems to be a CHA but painless. Heat flush, congestion, but no pain. I know all about this weirdo tendancy of CH's, but what I want to know, and always have whenever ny attacks seemed to vanish, is why?
what is it that we're doing, right or 'wrong', or that our bodies are doing to cause this remission or change, from chronic to episodic? I'm used to have a screamer every36 hours or so; prior to that it was up to six times a day. Then it droppped down to twice or three times, then every other day. Now its only on specific days. If I could catch the reason for the absence of the attacks in a bottle, that'd make me very happy. At this point all I know how to do is live and wait for the next 'cycle' to knock me down again, and in some ways that's worse than the attacks themselves.
The reason I'm noting al of this here is because I find that as long as I don't make any major changes in my life,, the attacks seem to go away and stay away until some adjustment takes place. If I change or get a new jobs, or alter my hours, or try to do anything other than what is currently happening, then it seems the screamers come back. This happened to me years ago when I tried to go back to school. For a while the screamers diminished, and four days into classes they came right back, right in the middle of class! The same thing with work; the minute I changed jobs or got a new schedule, the screamers came back.
It seems as though anytime I make an adjustment in my lifestyle that affects the 'normal' course of events I'm used to up until that point, the screamers come back.
This week I may be changing jobs and trying to get back to school again, and I'm scared to death that the screamers will return just as these things get underway and scrub all my plans.
Has this , or does this happen to anyone else?