Posted by Alane (152.163.213.67) on September 26, 2000 at 01:48:52:
Don't want anybody to worry about me so I guess I should post time to time. It's that time of year again, so soon it seems like only resturday when I had to deal with these sob's. Back on Verapamil up to 480mg so far. I think the sob's are slowing down. 480mg might be the ticket this time 'round. My Grandmother died tonight. I was with her when she took her final breath. I am not sad. I'm just glad she is out of pain. She has been sufferering with lung cancer for the last year and has suffered enough. I am at peace with her passing.
Being out of the loony bin has been harder than I though it would be. I am not coping as well as I thought I would. I have had many thoughs of suicide in the last week. I increased my anti-depresant, hope it works otherwise it's back to the looney bin for me. Sorry for the rambling, it helps to get some shit off my chest.