Posted by Dennis O'C (22.214.171.124) on November 23, 2000 at 11:11:46:
In Reply to: I am sorry posted by Jason on November 23, 2000 at 02:09:21:
of a session we had her in Feb 2000 where we tried to describe what CH pain was like.
The pain is all
If you donít get a clear picture of a Cluster Headache from what I am about to say...Iíll understand. Before I had one I would certainly never have believed that pain like this was possible to have...and live through.
At the Cluster Headacheís height, my whole being, body, mind, and soul are filled with a seemingly endless, helpless, desperate, cry of ďNOOOOĒ as if at once I had lost my child, my wife, and all my loved ones because of some stupid accident that I had caused. This desperate moment may last over an hour for me. Not that I am responsible for the pain in any way...Iím just trying to describe the depth of despair my Psyche reaches.
THE PAIN IS ALL...The worst toothache of my life grew and festered while I was in jail. Days and nights of unmedicated, unrelenting ever sharper blinding pain, the begging to the uncaring guards, the banging of my head against wall, bed frame, and bars finally culminated in my being strip searched, shackled and transported like a rabid dog to a room with a chair to which I was handcuffed...arms and legs....no anesthesia.
I can still feel the manís knee on my stomach and the pressure of his left hand covering and roughly pushing unmercifully against my face as the unyielding tooth refused to be pulled.The muscles of his upper body shook from the tension as he pulled again and again on that tooth.The pain and terror and helplessness took me to the edge of consciousness as the molar finally shattered and each of the three roots were dug from my head. The manís fury and frustration were repeated with each stubborn piece.
When a Cluster peaks, it feels as if not one but each of my teeth and every root, top and bottom on the left side of my face are once again experiencing THAT pain...unfortunately so is my eye socket,temple,forehead and even top of my head...each with itís individual spiking...all at the same time.
You probably think that with that much pain Iíd be writhing on the floor, unable to stand, that Iíd be screaming and crying...you would be right.
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