Posted by Todd (22.214.171.124) on December 31, 2000 at 23:34:23:
In Reply to: Pain posted by Tony on December 31, 2000 at 21:50:24:
Pain hurts. Clusters really, really hurt.
But I'm not drowning. Neither are you.
I'm not a freak. Neither are you.
I haven't thrown my life away. Neither have you (yet).
Today, I watched a TV program in Side Shows. Freaks. Geeks. Human Oddities. There was a segment about the Tallest Living Woman, 7' 4", I think. Talking to some children she said this:
"When people ask me if I wish I were shorter, I say No. To me, wishing I were other than I am is negative thinking"
I'm bald, and a friend was joking about that in chat the other night. I told them they were wasting their time joking about my "beautiful head of skin". I've long since accepted it just as I've accepted my clusters. Anything else would be effort wasted on negative thinking. And when it comes to clusters, I need every ounce of my being to fight the Demon off. I can't afford to second guess or self-doubt- - I have to fight back.
Hang in and keep fighting, Tony. In the end, WE always win, for the Demon leaves. Be it for hours or days or weeks or months or years, he always leaves, and we remain.
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