Posted by August (18.104.22.168) on January 02, 2001 at 05:14:02:
I got a letter from my mother this morning. She said she'd like me to attend their family re-union if i could keep from having a headache during it. She said my headaches can be disruptive and make it hard to have a normal get-to-together.
After I read this anger came first, then hurt, then tears, and then anger again. First I haven't learned how to flip the switch yet on my "headaches" to the off mode. If I could I'm sure i would so I wasn't being "dis-ruptive". Maybe i'm being too sensitive? Maybe I'd just like to be understood. Maybe I don't give a sh#t anymore and I'll go anyway and just be dis-ruptive and embarrassing. This could be the last time I get to see any of them again, so maybe i'll swallow my pride and just hide if one comes. Decisions decisions. I think the emotion i'm going back to now is tears.
Like Margi said once before, ...some posts don't need to be answered, sometimes people just need to vent. If someone has an idea on how to handle supportive understanding relatives, i'm all tears...i mean ears.
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