Posted by JJS (220.127.116.11) on February 23, 2001 at 22:52:28:
I think it's over guys, my 10 week battle with the beast. I have a word for all of you, and it is simply:
Thanks. You've been my only friends for the past 2 1/2 months, and I'll spend everyday being there for you guys when you need it. Say the word, I'm there.
OK that's out of the way, so now I have a few words for the beast, I know he can read this board, he 's scared of us, he's getting more and more afraid every day. This is for him:
Listen up, you motherf&%#$@. You've tried and failed again. You beat me down into a whimpering baby again.
You've taken my family away for the last two months. You've kept my friends at bay. People that I work with respect me less now that they did two months ago. You made me go to the pharmacy and beg for my medication. You had me on the phone for hours at a time, making appointments with the docs, fighting with the insurance company, ordering O2, refilling prescriptions, calling out of work. You made me walk for miles, trying to get you out. You kept me awake for days at a time. You've made my wife cry. You've made my kids scared for me. Worried if Daddy's OK.
I hate you. You've made me read the posts here about kids that you attack. Defenseless children. You cold hearted son-of-a-bitch. And you don't have the balls to stand right here in front of me and let me fight back. Just once, stand here and give me a chance to fight back.
You won't do it, will ya?
I hate you.
I beat you again, but I don't feel the victory. You cowered and snuck away when my back was turned. You're a coward.
I'm back. I'm back for my family. I'm back for my friends. I'm back for the people that stuck with me while you were here. This time it was many. Next time it will be many more.
I know you'll be back. You'l wait until I'm at my best, and you'll sneak in, in the middle of the night again. I know how you work.
But, you need to recognize this:
You're NOT going to beat me. EVER! You might even trick me into thinking you got me beat, but what I've learned this time around is this:
What doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.
Next time I'm ready for ya! Bring it on, and every time you wanna take on a defenseless kid, come to me first, you spineless prick.
And the winner is:
A victory for all of us!
Second rant of the day, huh? Well, it feels that good when you know it's over, I'm sure you all know. Hopefully, it will help those in cycle now, and for you chronics out there, you better beleive that you have someone in me that's going to fight for ya everyday...
As individuals, our life (CH wise) sucks. Together, we are the strongest group of people that ever walked this planet.
Think about it, it's true.
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