Posted by nancyc (152.163.207.49) on April 25, 2001 at 16:41:55:
For the last few weeks, I have been going thru alot..I have been dealing with a supervisor that I may end up taking to court, a rapid pulse (having tests now), the demon trying to sneak in the back door (verapamil increased) and alot of depression (put on Prozac and can now see alittle sunlight). I know this post is long (sorry jonny LMAO) but I need to share how you people help others get thru emotional pain along with physical pain. I tried to write down my feelings so bear with me. For the last few weeks when I closed my eyes at nite, I would vow never to see the sun rise in the sky again. To never feel happiness or pain but only to drift away to a place I have dreamed of. To leave behind all the sadness and pain in this world and to never have to shed another tear. But then, you reached out to me and shared these words with me. Yes, there has been pain but joy is just over the horizon. The sun goes down only to rise again on a new day full of possibilities and hope. There are faces you have never met but only heard the words in your heart that they have written to you. There is healing for your wounds and hugs and smiles to help the pain go away. Your smile will return. Hold on, we are there for you. There is a little white fluffy puppy that is there to bite your toes and to help you eat your supper everynite. There is a grown son that has his mother's picture on his bulletin board next to his bed. There is a mother that still prays for her little girl everynite. There are patients in rehab that need to see your smile while they try to get their lives together. And through all this pain, you still have people that love you and need you even though you may not have alot to offer right now. For these reminders, I thank you. For my cup does overflow and slowly my smile is returning. I hope this all makes sense...I just had to let you all know how much I do care for all of you. SMILE, nancyc