Posted by Carl D on April 25, 1999 at 02:56:35:
In Reply to: I'm so tired... posted by Marcus on April 25, 1999 at 00:39:14:
Marcus, I know how you feel. I haven't had a good nights sleep in weeks. When I did, I was ecstatic, thinking I was going out of cycle, but it was just giving me a short break (after a year of hardcore hell). I wish I had some answers for you, but at this time I am still searching myself. I know you feel like youre gonna lose it, but remember this: for everyday that passes and you suffer with these, you become stronger. I can quite explain it, but everytime I feel like offing myself, somehow I manage to get myself together. Cant tell you how many times I've fallen apart. In the proccess of doing it right now. I have 5 days before I'm homeless, So H/A's are the last thing on my mind at the moment,except it will be vying for 1st place as it is 1:50am and I must attempt(feebily) to at least get an hours sleep. I feel like walking dead. The top half gets heavy, eyes feel like they've been pryed open. I am praying for you. Hopefully someone will find a cure or a better way to control these Damned H/A's. Until then, try to find a good outlet for the aggression your building up. Mine is music. I totally believe if you don't have a release for the anger, frustration,sorrow and depression, you will eventually explode and either hurt yourself or someone you love. We humans are like balloons: fill us up too much and we explode. Stay strong, so far your tougher than they are. Praying for a full goods night sleep for all.
Carl D