Posted by TerryS (24.24.79.72) on August 28, 2001 at 12:59:06:
In Reply to: Bad thoughts.... posted by Brad W. on August 28, 2001 at 11:53:33:
Subject: Hold On.
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> When You Feel You Can't Go On
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> I'm sorry that you're hurting so desperately right now. I know how
> painful the seconds, and minutes, and days can be, how long the nights
> are. I
> understand how very hard hanging on is, and
> how much courage it takes.
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> I ask though that you hold onto one day at a time. Just one day, and
> slowly
> this despair will pass.
> The feelings you fear you're trapped in will serve their purpose, and
> then fade away. Difficult to imagine isn't it? Almost impossible to
> believe
> when every cell in your body it seems cries out in
> agony, desperately in need of comfort. When it feels like the only thing
> in
> the whole world that
> can touch your pain and banish it is beyond your grasp. And after all
this
> time, the assurance that
> you will heal has become an empty, broken promise.
>
> Just let one tiny cell in your body continue to believe in the promise
> of healing. Just one. You can surrender every other cell to your despair.
> Just that one little cell of faith that you can heal and
> be whole again is enough to keep you going, is enough to lead you
> through the darkness. Although it can't banish your suffering, it can
> sustain
> you until the time comes for you to let your pain go.
> And the letting go can only occur in it's own time, as much as we would
> like
> to push the pain away forever.
>
> Hold on. Hold on to appreciate the beauty of the earth, to feel the songs
> of
> the birds in your heart,
> to learn and to teach, to laugh a genuine laugh, to dance on the beach,
to
> rest peacefully, to experience contentment, to want to be no other place
> but
> in the here and now, to trust in yourself,
> and to trust your life.
>
> Hold on because it's worth the terrible waiting. Hold on because you are
> worthy. Hold on because the wisdom that will follow you out of this
> darkness
> will be a tremendous gift. Hold on
> because you have so much love and joy waiting to be experienced. Hold on
> because life is precious, even though it can bring terrible losses. Hold
> on
> because there is so much that you can't
> now imagine waiting ahead on your journey...a destiny that only you can
> fulfill. Hold on although your exhausted and your grasp is shaky, and you
> want more than anything to let go sometimes,
> hold on even though. Please hold on.
>
> So much in life can be difficult, even impossible to understand. I know,
I
> know...So many of us
> have cried in despair, why? why? Why? and still the answers and the
> comfort failed to show. Survival can be a long and lonely road, in spite
> of
> all those who've stumbled down the path
> before you. And it can be a treacherous, torturous journey...so easy to
> get
> lost, and yet impossible to avoid even one painful step.
>
> And the light, the light at the end of the dark tunnel for so long
> cannot be seen, although eventually you'll begin to feel its' warmth as
> you
> move forward. And forward you must move in
> order to get through the hell of remembering, of despair, of rage, of
> grief.
> Keep looking forward please. Rest if you must, doubt your ability to
> survive
> the journey if you have to, but never let go
> of the guide ropes, although when you close your fingers around them,
your
> hands feel empty, they are there. Please trust me, they are there.
>
> When you're exhausted, when all you have to count on is a weakened, weary
> faith, hold on. When you think you want to die, hold on until you
> recognize
> that it's not death you seek, but for the pain to go away. Hold on,
> because
> this darkness will surely fade away. Hold on. Please hold on.
>
> ~Author Unknown~
>