Posted by nancyc (152.163.201.72) on December 01, 2001 at 06:39:31:
after dancing with the beast for so long...and isolating...and pushing all my friends away by making excuses everytime they called wanting me to go somewhere or just being plain rude cause I was in pain...I am lonely as hell now...I am pf now and life is frigging miserable....I feel like I am in prison....I feel like I am still dancing with the beast but the physical pain is gone but the emotional pain is still there...Has anyone ever gone thru this crap....Cause I don't know how to stop it...I dont' know how to start over again...I have isolated for so long that I don't know how to stop doing it..But I can not keep living like this...This is not living..This is not ME!...For the first time in my life, I am so miserable but I feel I do not have the energy to do anything about it but I want to . People tell me to just start going places again but that is easier said than done.....nance