Posted by Robert (12.74.144.95) on December 30, 2001 at 02:28:47:
Hey everyone, I'm 33 yrs old and I registered on this site a long time ago but this is my first post. It's 1am and I've been in hell this month. I used to be episodic (5 yrs) and then became chronic about 3 yrs ago. It took numerous doctors about 5 years to even diagnose my problem. While I was episodic, usually a couple of burst packs of prednisone, muscle relaxers, and Vicodin usually axed the episodes.....but, now I'm on about 10-15 different meds....some for the headaches....some to help me sleep....some for depression and anxiety. I still have anywhere from 1-3 a day. I have lost my wife recently and my visitation with my son because of "The Talons Of Hell". I can't work, I can't even hardly keep my house clean. I am at my wits end with these things. It's 1am....a friend brought me a fifth of Vodka just to knock me out long enough to get over the pain. I cry, I scream, I curse, I pace the floors, I bang my head, I dig my fingernails into any sensitive place I can find in my mouth or around my teeth to try and confuse my nerves....nothing works. I lost my faith in a GOD a long time ago but I value life too much to shoot myself in the head (The thought does cross my mind though). I'm afraid to leave the house because I might get one while I'm out and I know nobody would understand. I live in the Branson, MO area and would greatly appreciate any information regarding a doctor that will take my problem seriously and try to find a treatment that at least helps. I couldn't even drive home to see my family this Christmas because of these damn things. Well, I guess that's a helluva first post and I'm going to try to enjoy the few hours I have before another one kicks in. Thanks for listening and thanks for this site. My heart goes out to all of you that suffer from this nightmare.