Posted by Carl D (24.217.48.104) on February 10, 2002 at 12:27:25:
Hey Gang,
Not sure what has been happening with the board, but I haven't been here much lately. Sorry, I haven't strayed far...
I just moved back to Granite City, and getting settled in. I was talking with a friend the other day, and he said something that amused me. "Dude, I know your still getting hit with those things, but you're not as down or desperate. Wow, how grossly I have grown accustomed to my physical abnormality, I am used to it.
Yes, I am still getting hit, but I have hope. They are not as often or as strong as they once were, but my sleep has been fading away again. No sleep in two days wrecks ya. But I am just waiting for something to 'pop up' to try and break this cycle. So far, my gardening has not been very good. I guess I don't have a green thumb, but I am still hopeful.
As far as the BS on the board... I have grown bored. I won't even waste my time with egomasters who have nothing better to do than to razz people or give them a hard time. How empty a life one must lead when he preys upon those who hurt. And that is all I will say about that.
And for those interested, or curious....
SNAPPED... is soon to be a reality. Now that I am finished moving in helter skelter fashion once more, my top priority is putting my first novel to bed, as I am ghetting into "The Vigilant Code" further than I thought I would. I have put that (4 chapters done) on the backburner until I can finally say "IT IS FINISHED." Man, making babies isn't this hard, nor does it take as long. This first book is my baby though, and I am growing even more anxious to get it into peoples hands. Soon, very soon.
Hope that all good people can smile today even if your weather is a dreary as ours. Savor every pain-free moment and bottle it as a perfume to overscent the pain. If anyone knows how bad it can get, trust me, I do know. I cringe when I read some of my old postings here, and can remember when all I had was the pain from continuous CH attacks. I just look back now and think, "Man, was I fucked up or what?" 8-12 attacks a day is no way to live for any of us. I hope people are getting treatment, and able to buck the system. If you haven't tried the 'Shroom therapy, you may want to consider it at least. I did it twice, and within 2 months had gone from 7 a day down to 1 or 2 a week. Hoping soon to be back down to the bare minimum of none.
Peace out and Jonny...
Here is another lengthy post for your collection of 'posts on tape.'
Carl D